i miss you. im currently hugging doggie. everytime i miss you i hug doggie. partly because he's been a part of you and he's slept with you for a couple of weeks. and God if only you knew how must i miss you.

don't mind the former posts.
don't read back. the past three posts were half lies.

im pulling you down? right? tell me.
i am the worst girlfriend ever.

i can't even make you happy.

hi there. it's 10.56 pm here in manila. oh wait. time doesn't change within country. not if you're in Fiji where half the place is in yesterday and the other in tomorrow. @.@ weird. but i want to see. wouldn't it be fun. to sit right in the middle of the international dateline and watch the sun rise together.

i just watched license to wed and it's FUN to watch. super fun to watch because 1. it could happen in real life. 2. it's FUN. 3. it's FUN... 1024. it's FUN. hahaha so don't you get it? of course you do. you always do :) ikaw pa. you are my exact opposite. well most of the times.

nakakainis ka. naiinis ako kasi bakit ako may cellphone na pwedeng gamitin para itext ka. tapos wala akong matatanggap na message. bakit?! or kung meron may super delay. dapat pa la hindi na lang gumana yun unlimited texting sa sun ko para hindi ako umaasa na may rereply sakin. @.@ ok so maybe i am bit demanding. pero pero. wala. nakadepend ang buong buhay ko sa iyo. umiikot na lang sa iyo. wala na kong kausap sa YM maliban kay Joc at kay Pepe at kay Ice. i mean alam mo yun. alam ko ikaw din ganoon. pero at least you are needed by people. ME? i was never needed. i was. but now i am useless.

maybe i should start making myself needed by something else. other than you. maybe. maybe. maybe i should start by leaving my phone home again so i don't have to sit in from of the bear and in front of the cellphone staring at me back from its green translucent sofa.

or maybe i should start seeing other people? i mean while you are gone. and all. i dunno. or maybe i'll just do my homework. OW WAIT. it's already done. maybe i should start stopping all this maybe's and start getting a life for myself.

yeah. i think i can do that.

ayokong umalis ka.
don't you want me to be happy?
i want.

it was always easy for me to understand people before. now, i don't know. really.