april twenty nine

i didn't feel like going to church today ---> so i didn't. well actually i did. but my mind was wandering so much na parang wala na din ako doon. grabe nga e. pero DREW! devirginized na ko ng BIKE. huhu. XD

heaven 'n hell

sakit ng tyan ko. sinuka ko yun heaven and eggs haha XD sayang di ko kinaya ang pagkain ng madami. kala ko pa naman. kaso ganoon talaga e. asa na lang ako. hahaha. never will i eat to that EXTREME!

get well soon

really. please do. i want to see you tomorrow.

kung pwede lang yun sakit mo sakin na lang. grr.

i hurts so much to know na nasasaktan ka at wala ako sa tabi mo.

can i be your cure?

my everything

i so love you. and i hope you know that. i would do anything just to be with you. i love you simply because you are you and that you know the way i know you.

conversation

ma: dapat kapag hihingi ka ng lalake kay God ka humingi. kung uulitin ko lang ang buhay ko dederechohin ko na. pipili ako ng anak ng Diyos.
me: *nods*
*silence*
me: chinese kaya si drew.
ma: wala akong pake kung chinese sya. bakit magsyota ba kayo?
me: hindi.
ma: o. e di wala syang karapatan. bakit sya ba magiging syota mo?
me: (sa aking isipinan. ang ibig sabihin ng syota ay short time. hindi sya pang short time. HINDI) hindi.
ma: mag ingat ka pa din kay andrew. lalake pa din yan.
me: sige.

you are now in subic

and i'm here stuck in de la salle university manila with a guy who is apparently addicted to a summer camper. haha. LOLs. thanks sa pag sabi sa kin na i should stop thinking about stuff. cause it only gets me frustrated. for some reason, ang hirap hindi mag isip ng mga abstract ideas kasi syempre it shows your view on life and everything else.

siguro my purpose right now is to love you. and i want to spend the rest of my life with you. ikaw lang naman ang nakikita kong kasama ko habang buhay e. promise. you're the only one that i will ever want and need. and gaaah. you're getting HOTTER.






irresistable

scared

ever since you told me that your mom had the idea that you should not limit yourself to just me for an option. takot ako. kasi syempre. i'm happy na hindi mo kinonsider yun sabi ng mom mo. pero natatakot pa din ako. sobra. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako natatakot. siguro kasi may chance na pwedeng may makilala kang iba na mas hihigit pa sakin.

ayoko nun.
gusto ko magpakaselfish. na kahit ganito lang ako.

akin ka lang.

kasi sa iyo lang naman ako e.

what IF

what if nga no? kung hindi ako nagsabi ng iloveyou sa iyo. siguro hanggang textmates lang tayo. siguro hanggang doon lang tayo no? hanggang sa mga moments together lang. pero wala lang. wala sigurong feeling. wala sigurong security that you would always be there for me. shucks natatakot ako. wala lang. kaya ako tahimik ngayon habang kausap ka. kasi natatakot ako. at ayokong manaig ang takot sa puso ko. kasi alam kong mahal kita. nakakatakot isiping pwede maging hindi ganito. what if i treated you differently? what if i didn't make a move.

pero mahal na mahal kita. at nagpapasalamat ako na hanggang what if lang ang mga iniisip ko.

too bad

wala lang. TAGAL DUMATING SA BAHAY. naantok na ko!

21 :)

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! sad sad sad.

grabe. sweetest misery kita. haha. kasi alam mo kung bakit?! dahil ikaw nag isang tao na sobrang attached ako. as in to the NTH LEVEL. hehe napakaattached ako sa iyo. hehe. grabe. natuwa ka naman at nagseselos ako. haha. sana naappreciate mo ang 11 penguins ko para sa iyo. magpapractice na kong magdrawing ng monkey. :D hehe. wala lang. kakatuwa e. I'M finally doing something I LOVE for the PERSON i truly love. :">

wui TULOG SYA :D

hindi mo alam

na nagbloblog ako habang kausap ka. at alam mo ba na kaunting saglit na lang ay shux. 90 days na tayong magkasama. sorry po sa lahat. sobra. grabe. namatay YUN RABBIT! ang scary. huhu. iyak ako o. shux. parang bata na hindi mapatahan.

pero drew. mahal kita promise. buong buhay ko ibibigay ko sa iyo. at buong pagkatao ko. sana alam mo yun.

tulog ka na

sorry


sorry.

hindi kasi ako sensitive sa feelings mo. :(

magbabago na ko.

SURPRISE!

ang cute cute mo talaga kanina sobra. grabe hindi na maiaalis sa isipan ko yun reaction mo kanina. grabe. parang BAKIT KA NANDITO?! pero sobrang cute mo talaga. weee. ok lang sakin na nakikiJAM ka with chart. UI. percussionist na ang minamahal ko. weeeeee mahal na mahal talaga kita. sobra. sana alam mo yun. :) sana talaga alam mo na kahit ano gagawin ko para sa iyo. MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA
:D

time apart

grrrrrrrrrr. maghihiwalay tayo. naiiyak ako. huhu. gusto kita puntahan ngayon kaso kelangan ko tapusin ang chores ko. naku madaming salamat at ginising mo ko. huhu. ayokong umalis. :(

toops

grabe isa akong malaking tamad. alam mo naman na bukas aalis na ko pero wala. ayokong magpack. tinatamad ako. T_T

far worst

.. the longest saturday i have. gaaaaaaaaah.

i want to kiss you so bad. i want to hug you to be with you to lie in bed with you. to think about you to hold your hand and touch you. to be everything you want me to.

ano bang masama kung inanaais kong makapiling ka, makasama ka?! e iyon ang nararamdaman ko e. at gusto ko mangyari iyon ngayon. pwede ba? please. huhu.

i miss you now

grabe. i want you to hug me so hard that you would not let me go. these is far one of the most hard seperation from you. and it hurts so bad that i can't see you. i really want to be with you so bad that it hurts not to be with you. grr. i hate summer. since it tears me apart.

course card

weeeeeeeee naka one point zero ako sa dasalgo. thank God :D weee. and thank God i have you. :) so happy to be with you every miunte of every second of everyday. :D

bakit parang ang ikli na lagi ng post ko. hmmm.

objectp

toinkie toink toink. sana pumasa ako sa objectp. hala anmath1 test tomorrow. haha. ano kaya magyayari. hmmm :-s

sali tayo sa batch assembly. hehe. wala lang. nasubmit ko na form ko e. hehe interview. :P

dasalgo

ang cute mo magtest. nakakatuwa ka. wee. sana talaga pumasa ako sa dasalgo. shux. objectp pa pa la bukas no. hala. nako wee. half way na nga ako ngayon sa pag aaral ng objectp e. wee sana talaga pumasa ako sa objectp. :)

study

i really hope i pass dasalgo. i studied hard. i think. grr. im sorry na i didn't get to be with you today. sorry, i need to buy the charger na talaga. putek

waiting for the phone call.

wait wait wait wait.

err

i need you.

hafee bday to my brother

sensia. late ako nagising e. wee i want everyday to be a friday. because fridays are so.. i dunno. it just makes me feel. free. hahaha. fridays are good days! super! i believe in that. it is the day God save us from our sins. redemption is totally sweet :D really sweeeeeeeeeeet. i do love you. love love loooove looooooove you!

hello

i was suppose to go to your house today. kaso aww. hindi natuloy dahil sa recording. wee. ang cool nung kaduet ko si mark gamboa. he's not that hot but still he sings HOT! hahahaa. God. he was that good. hehe. he carried the song. :) and damn ang ganda ganda nung song. i almost cried. it's about a mother and daughter relationship which gone down the drain. tapos nagrebelde yun daughter and she got pregnant. but the good thing about this is that. sinagot sya nung lalaki. as in. pero still, her mom forgave her despite everything. gets?! ganda ng story. haha. i was suppose to be the daughter. and there is a "hugging scene". wala lang. ang cool. i saw them practicing din kasi. hehe. makes me want to be there. but am not!

naririto lang ako sa tabi mo.

hindi kita iiwan.

pangako.

coolness. ang ganda nung play. papatok sya. wee. hello my love. my one true love. i love you! do you know that?! ha?! shux. birthday na ng brother ko tomorrow. he's turning eight. LOL! haha. 8 years pa la gap namin. shux. i'm that OLD?! waah. but you are older haha :D

toodles my love!

ang hirap

nahihirapan lang ako.

second chances

you are my sweetest misery. and i am so happy. alam mo ba yung song na second chance ni michelle branch?! it is so nice.

And when you say
"It doesn't matter"; well it does

and it does matter. cause you will be the only reason i am here. you will be the only thing that would keep me living. i know i can live without you. but i won't take the chance. why live empty-handed, when there is something; someone meant for you. i so love you andrew. so much. i hope nakikita mo yun. i hope nararamdaman mo yun. at mas gusto ko na magpakaTOTOO ka. ok?! promise. and when we fight and we have not resolved it. oops. Major Offense po yan sa Discipline Office. I am not afraid to do it. even in front of the student body nevermind. erase erase. haha. mukha akong bi-atch nun. shux.

magpapakababae ako tomorrow. thankshu so much. ang sarap mo kasama. and don't think i will leave you. i won't. because i assure you physical presence is not the only way for you to know i am with you. always remember the wind when it blows. and remember me when you light a candle. look in the heart of the flame. there you will find me. like how i see myself deep in your heart. deep in your passion. deep in your flame.

i do love you. and i want to share every moment of every day of my whole life with you. i hope you feel the same way too. don't let me go. because i will never let you go. i need you. simply because i really do cherish and love you.

smile

happenings, events. chikkaness.

i soo hope my cousin will pass manila science. ang galing niya kasi e. masipag sya. hindi sya matalino. pero anyways, ganoon ang buhay! she still deserves to go to masci. haha. everyone does.

natatawaamazed ako sa mga instances. matagal na pa la tayong pinagtatagpo ni fate. kaso nga lang TAMAD KA! ayan. but somehow the circumstances change but with the same goal -> to bring us together. and im glad i IMed you that night to ask if you were playing o2jam. and when i asked you to make kwento monkey and banana. and when i asked you to stay with me even though late na. and when i asked you to hug me. when i asked you to be my friend. and if it was ok to say 'i love you'. when i asked you who you liked and that i liked you back. im glad i made those decisions. or else i wouldn't have what i have right now. God does makes way. and
God has proven me you are the one. and you have. and all it took was for me to believe. for me to see. :)

today, i do admire kc. and im glad you met him. he's super nice although he looks like a cute panda, he has the true heart of a tapat leader. tapat is a socio-political organization or your ticket to the student council.

it's a way of life. it's how you act, speak and communicate. for me that is tapat. not just a mere political party but a lifestyle. a way to live life to the fullest. to believe that each and everyone is good. that there must be something wrong with the system not the people. that we need change to solve problems and that we need each other to achieve a common goal. that is tapat. i want to be tapat. i hope i could. i would try. until i achieve that vision. a just and free society. too bad i won't see it materialize. i want to make that vision a reality. thank God for KC. he rekindled this flame. i'm quite happy. now i realize that it is truly in darkness that light shines the brighest. thanks Lean.

i'm happy. i think im doing what i want to do. when i first entered lasalle i told myself i want to change people's lives. and i think i do. i think i affect one life at a time. and it's not for the worse. i hope. i think they are actually changing because of me. and so am i. i've meet so many good people who taught me a lot of things. the good and the bad. i learned so many lessons and i knew i gave up a lot of times. but i promise myself, i will never give up anymore.

i will never give up the things which are worth fighting for. never.

i won't make the same mistake again.

i promise.

please be with me :)






forever//

april one

shux. i totally lovelike the guy in "life with derek". super cool. ang hot niya tapos he is so handsome. totally. ang dami ngang gwapo ngayon sa paligid e. or maybe it's because i see things in a positive way. hmm. *think think* i dunno.

shux. ang bilis ng oras no. april na pa la. parang kahapon lang january no. tapos ngayon finals na. next term sophies na tayo. lovers of wisdom. LOL. asa naman di ba. pero shux ang dami talagang gwapo. nevermind. haha. :)

i do love you. and i want to sleepover there. sa summer. happy happy. i want to be with you even now. im so happy just being with you. and im sad that you are there alone. sana nafefeel mo ang pagmamahal ko. *blush blush*

'cause there will always be a part of me that will always be with you. and it's the part you could hold on to forever. though you can not see me or be with me physically, that part of me is always with you. ~it's my undying love for you and the way i love you.

i will love you with all that i am and will all that i will
ever be.

p/s. time to fix my life. one step at a time. first. tapat. second. academics. third. tennis. fourth. friends. :)

i love you. :)

happy

i got some advices and i think nasabi ko na sila sa iyo.

lahat kayang gawin pero hindi lahat ng ginagawa kayang mahalin. and apparently it is so true. kasi we all have the capabilities to be whatever we want to be. but the wanting doesn't necessarily mean we love to be that. sometimes we could never love the thing we do because it is not inline with who we are.

we are here to encourage each other. and that is what i am going to do with you. i won't get tired of loving and supporting you.

i actually got frustrated kanina. kasi i realize all the people in my life have their own passion. their own thing that they are now pursuing. when you said to me magshift na ko. i wanted to. but where?! mahirap. pero. tapos sir perez finally went to PMA. it's these people. these experiences that makes me think twice right now?! if i am really going to pursue what i want. what i need.

but i want to be with you.

and i want to be the one for you. who would support you all the way.



i guess it's something called sacrifice. :) but then again, it's never called sacrifice when you do it willingly. right?!