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Sunday, November 11, 2007
Saturday, November 3, 2007
hi there. it's 10.56 pm here in manila. oh wait. time doesn't change within country. not if you're in Fiji where half the place is in yesterday and the other in tomorrow. @.@ weird. but i want to see. wouldn't it be fun. to sit right in the middle of the international dateline and watch the sun rise together.
i just watched license to wed and it's FUN to watch. super fun to watch because 1. it could happen in real life. 2. it's FUN. 3. it's FUN... 1024. it's FUN. hahaha so don't you get it? of course you do. you always do :) ikaw pa. you are my exact opposite. well most of the times.
nakakainis ka. naiinis ako kasi bakit ako may cellphone na pwedeng gamitin para itext ka. tapos wala akong matatanggap na message. bakit?! or kung meron may super delay. dapat pa la hindi na lang gumana yun unlimited texting sa sun ko para hindi ako umaasa na may rereply sakin. @.@ ok so maybe i am bit demanding. pero pero. wala. nakadepend ang buong buhay ko sa iyo. umiikot na lang sa iyo. wala na kong kausap sa YM maliban kay Joc at kay Pepe at kay Ice. i mean alam mo yun. alam ko ikaw din ganoon. pero at least you are needed by people. ME? i was never needed. i was. but now i am useless.
maybe i should start making myself needed by something else. other than you. maybe. maybe. maybe i should start by leaving my phone home again so i don't have to sit in from of the bear and in front of the cellphone staring at me back from its green translucent sofa.
or maybe i should start seeing other people? i mean while you are gone. and all. i dunno. or maybe i'll just do my homework. OW WAIT. it's already done. maybe i should start stopping all this maybe's and start getting a life for myself.
yeah. i think i can do that.
i just watched license to wed and it's FUN to watch. super fun to watch because 1. it could happen in real life. 2. it's FUN. 3. it's FUN... 1024. it's FUN. hahaha so don't you get it? of course you do. you always do :) ikaw pa. you are my exact opposite. well most of the times.
nakakainis ka. naiinis ako kasi bakit ako may cellphone na pwedeng gamitin para itext ka. tapos wala akong matatanggap na message. bakit?! or kung meron may super delay. dapat pa la hindi na lang gumana yun unlimited texting sa sun ko para hindi ako umaasa na may rereply sakin. @.@ ok so maybe i am bit demanding. pero pero. wala. nakadepend ang buong buhay ko sa iyo. umiikot na lang sa iyo. wala na kong kausap sa YM maliban kay Joc at kay Pepe at kay Ice. i mean alam mo yun. alam ko ikaw din ganoon. pero at least you are needed by people. ME? i was never needed. i was. but now i am useless.
maybe i should start making myself needed by something else. other than you. maybe. maybe. maybe i should start by leaving my phone home again so i don't have to sit in from of the bear and in front of the cellphone staring at me back from its green translucent sofa.
or maybe i should start seeing other people? i mean while you are gone. and all. i dunno. or maybe i'll just do my homework. OW WAIT. it's already done. maybe i should start stopping all this maybe's and start getting a life for myself.
yeah. i think i can do that.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
undefined.
you don't get them really. sometimes they act like you are their world and sometimes they hate you for merely no reason. as for me, wala na kong pake. better this way.
Monday, September 17, 2007
sheepy will not see me tonight
i can not sleep because no one would wake me up or have follow-on calls to make sure i am awake. sometimes i feel that my body is giving up on me. that i maybe abusing it too much. we still have a quiz tomorrow and i think it would be best for me to fall fast asleep and wake up fresh. but what i am worried about is no one would wake me up.
maybe i should pray to God to wake me up. yeah. for now. i see sheep. i will go with sheep. monkey has left me earlier already. sheep can be my company for a while.
maybe i should pray to God to wake me up. yeah. for now. i see sheep. i will go with sheep. monkey has left me earlier already. sheep can be my company for a while.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
bioresearch
the yellow birdie was sad. he did something to make her upset. what could he have done? the other birdie did not want to talk. as the yellow birdie approach it went away. but they could not be apart from each other because they were in a cage. the cage was only for the two of them and they constant wanted their own space. yellow birdie wanted to be near her. but she didn't she wanted a long space between them.
he tried to explained and did as much as he could. he climbed lowering himself since wings keep you off the ground. at least when you climb you have something to hold on to and you can ensure yourself that you wouldn't always land on the ground. you can hold on and stay were you are. delayed but you can try again.
in the end, she saw that he was sincere with his apology and with this. he kissed her in the neck trying to say he wants her. after all, there is more when you have someone to share your life with.
he tried to explained and did as much as he could. he climbed lowering himself since wings keep you off the ground. at least when you climb you have something to hold on to and you can ensure yourself that you wouldn't always land on the ground. you can hold on and stay were you are. delayed but you can try again.
in the end, she saw that he was sincere with his apology and with this. he kissed her in the neck trying to say he wants her. after all, there is more when you have someone to share your life with.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
hello
since you came back from palawan there was not a day that we would not see each other. we even slept together remember. i miss those days when i know you were beside me. :)
i really love you andrew. i would everything i am to you. :) i really really love you >:D<
i have a bestfriend but he doesn't seem to return my Message nor reply in YM. am i not a good friend?
i really love you andrew. i would everything i am to you. :) i really really love you >:D<
i have a bestfriend but he doesn't seem to return my Message nor reply in YM. am i not a good friend?
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
hi there
if you are reading this, please call me as soon as you could. i really miss you. and i am so worried. don't ever leave me ok?! you promise. you told me you'd stay with me forever. please.
i can't afford to loose you. you're the only person i would love until the day i die. so don't leave me.
i can't afford to loose you. you're the only person i would love until the day i die. so don't leave me.
Monday, September 3, 2007
because you told me to sleep
and because i am an oh-so beautiful and loyal and understanding and obedient girlfriend.
yes, i would sleep. but before my weee hours in bed. i'll tell you the story of a bear. the bear was all alone in the forest. thinking that no one would love the him, the bear ventured deeper where he saw the cave. the cave was his hiding place. his santuary. everyday the bear took care of the cave. he placed fresh leaves everyday for his resting place. the cave had a waterfall inside where fishes flowed everyday. the bear need not to go anywhere else. except when the bear felt he wanted some berries. but the berries where just outside the cave. so he can pick them and go to the cave without anything or anyone entering the cave.
but one day the bear, saw someone get into the cave. and his privacy was shattered. the thing that came into it was a rabbit. and the bear didn't want to scare it off. the bear looked as it ventured deep within the cave. he followed the rabbit and saw that it drank at the waterfall he took care of. the waterfall he kept sacred. the waterfall he guarded. the waterfall that remained his and his alone.
but there was a rabbit. and the bear felt his whole self was shattered. broken down to pieces. pieces he can never pick up again. for this were the pieces that defined who he was. he was left broken in that cave. forever.
until..
to be continued :P haha. :D because i am sleepy and I NEED TO SLEEP :P
yes, i would sleep. but before my weee hours in bed. i'll tell you the story of a bear. the bear was all alone in the forest. thinking that no one would love the him, the bear ventured deeper where he saw the cave. the cave was his hiding place. his santuary. everyday the bear took care of the cave. he placed fresh leaves everyday for his resting place. the cave had a waterfall inside where fishes flowed everyday. the bear need not to go anywhere else. except when the bear felt he wanted some berries. but the berries where just outside the cave. so he can pick them and go to the cave without anything or anyone entering the cave.
but one day the bear, saw someone get into the cave. and his privacy was shattered. the thing that came into it was a rabbit. and the bear didn't want to scare it off. the bear looked as it ventured deep within the cave. he followed the rabbit and saw that it drank at the waterfall he took care of. the waterfall he kept sacred. the waterfall he guarded. the waterfall that remained his and his alone.
but there was a rabbit. and the bear felt his whole self was shattered. broken down to pieces. pieces he can never pick up again. for this were the pieces that defined who he was. he was left broken in that cave. forever.
until..
to be continued :P haha. :D because i am sleepy and I NEED TO SLEEP :P
just because.
oh yeah. i am so desperate. depressed and all those words to use when one is deprive of real happiness. of true happiness. i learned today that humility is being true to yourself and knowing your capabilities and limitations and being able to let others step up. so there. new understanding thanks to Father Ed Villanueva who happens to be a very nice homily giver during mass.
gawd. i envy you. island hopping. rawr. someday i'll get to do that again. for the mean time, i will continue to sober in my bottomless pool of loneliness. i feel so alone. i feel betrayed. i feel every bit of me is being taken for granted by certain people.
at bakit nga lahat ng tao kala galit ako? kung hindi ko sila pinapansin and they don't cease to exist in my world then galit ako. pero hello, i talk to them and i reply if given the chance. but still. o well. people are so blurry. haha :P LABO! i'm tired. really tired. tired of sitting all day in the house with nothing to do but hope you'll reply to my messages when i know you won't cause there is super low signal in Palawan. bitchy network. grr. someday. i will yeah. someday. whatever gwen.
but WAAAH i still miss you. really bad. as in bad with the lust and the love and the greed and the gluttony and everything that means excess. absences makes the heart grow fonder. men, i am really fond of you.
tomorrow, i mean later, i'll watch the movie on my own and perhaps scout for some books to read for a while. i need to entertain myself so bad because being stuck in the house isn't helping me. it's making me think. i don't want to think.
i don't want to be angry anymore. i don't want to be scared anymore. >.< i want you and you alone. GIVE YOURSELF TO ME :) NOW NA! hahaha :P
gawd. i envy you. island hopping. rawr. someday i'll get to do that again. for the mean time, i will continue to sober in my bottomless pool of loneliness. i feel so alone. i feel betrayed. i feel every bit of me is being taken for granted by certain people.
at bakit nga lahat ng tao kala galit ako? kung hindi ko sila pinapansin and they don't cease to exist in my world then galit ako. pero hello, i talk to them and i reply if given the chance. but still. o well. people are so blurry. haha :P LABO! i'm tired. really tired. tired of sitting all day in the house with nothing to do but hope you'll reply to my messages when i know you won't cause there is super low signal in Palawan. bitchy network. grr. someday. i will yeah. someday. whatever gwen.
but WAAAH i still miss you. really bad. as in bad with the lust and the love and the greed and the gluttony and everything that means excess. absences makes the heart grow fonder. men, i am really fond of you.
tomorrow, i mean later, i'll watch the movie on my own and perhaps scout for some books to read for a while. i need to entertain myself so bad because being stuck in the house isn't helping me. it's making me think. i don't want to think.
i don't want to be angry anymore. i don't want to be scared anymore. >.< i want you and you alone. GIVE YOURSELF TO ME :) NOW NA! hahaha :P
Sunday, September 2, 2007
second day
i didn't sleep very well and when i got home i was looking at both phones. i wanted to hear your voice but i was too afraid you'd be sleeping. you've waited long enough. i wanted to hear you say you missed me and you love me. i wasn't feeling better when i got home.
not that i wore heels cause i was accustomed to that manner due to ballroom dancing. but the fact that i went to a debut and didn't enjoy it. i didn't like the atmosphere and my tummy hurts. there was no mefenamic acid when i ventured the streets of Malate. neither was there a sign of you. everywhere i looked i remember you. from DOTA posters to BLUE colored places. from McDonald stands to Starbucks outlets. everything i saw reminded me of you. and how i wished text would travel fast so i could receive your reply.
now i know why i don't have a cellphone. it's because it makes me wait for you reply. it makes me wonder. i makes me think. that if the reply arrived early i'd be in total bliss and if it didn't maybe you're too busy. it makes me think of everything and anything while you are not with me. it makes me think of the time when we texted a lot. when i was expecting your reply despite the dozen of people who texted me. like all i wanted was for you to care. and not to constantly tell me stories about your highschool crush. *now you understand why im bitter* when i said maybe things could work out between you two. i didn't mean. of course i didn't want you to be with her. you deserve much better. you deserve me.
or so i think. with the numerous times i made you cry and the time i broke a promise and lied. the times when i didn't understand you. and the times you thought i didn't understand you. maybe you don't feel loved by me. if yes, i need to be better.
when you said you wanted to fix your life for us to be together again, i was afraid. afraid you'd grow to fast and think i'm so yesterday. so immature and so boring. i was scared of losing you. i know you'd go far. you'd succeed in life. you can do anything you can. and i sometimes think if you didn't meet me you'd still be an achiever. even if you don't come to class. sometimes, i think i'm a distraction. that you should be doing something much better other than talking to me or being with me. you need personal space. i should give it to you. i don't want you to be tired.
i'll give up everything for you. my hopes, my dreams and everything that defined who i was. i can give up things i could never give up before just for you. i can do everything you want me to do. just love me. i want you to love me. i need you to love me. not because you don't. i just want to say it.
i can't afford to loose you. but if i did. i'd do anything to get you back.
not that i wore heels cause i was accustomed to that manner due to ballroom dancing. but the fact that i went to a debut and didn't enjoy it. i didn't like the atmosphere and my tummy hurts. there was no mefenamic acid when i ventured the streets of Malate. neither was there a sign of you. everywhere i looked i remember you. from DOTA posters to BLUE colored places. from McDonald stands to Starbucks outlets. everything i saw reminded me of you. and how i wished text would travel fast so i could receive your reply.
now i know why i don't have a cellphone. it's because it makes me wait for you reply. it makes me wonder. i makes me think. that if the reply arrived early i'd be in total bliss and if it didn't maybe you're too busy. it makes me think of everything and anything while you are not with me. it makes me think of the time when we texted a lot. when i was expecting your reply despite the dozen of people who texted me. like all i wanted was for you to care. and not to constantly tell me stories about your highschool crush. *now you understand why im bitter* when i said maybe things could work out between you two. i didn't mean. of course i didn't want you to be with her. you deserve much better. you deserve me.
or so i think. with the numerous times i made you cry and the time i broke a promise and lied. the times when i didn't understand you. and the times you thought i didn't understand you. maybe you don't feel loved by me. if yes, i need to be better.
when you said you wanted to fix your life for us to be together again, i was afraid. afraid you'd grow to fast and think i'm so yesterday. so immature and so boring. i was scared of losing you. i know you'd go far. you'd succeed in life. you can do anything you can. and i sometimes think if you didn't meet me you'd still be an achiever. even if you don't come to class. sometimes, i think i'm a distraction. that you should be doing something much better other than talking to me or being with me. you need personal space. i should give it to you. i don't want you to be tired.
i'll give up everything for you. my hopes, my dreams and everything that defined who i was. i can give up things i could never give up before just for you. i can do everything you want me to do. just love me. i want you to love me. i need you to love me. not because you don't. i just want to say it.
i can't afford to loose you. but if i did. i'd do anything to get you back.
Saturday, September 1, 2007
palawan
hi there. you are in the longest strip of island here in the philippines. strip nga ba tawag doon or what? basta the third largest island in the philippines next to luzon and mindanao.
gusto ko sa palawan kasi fresh air. at may matutulugan akong malapit sa diving area. well di malapit talaga pero malapit sa daungan kung saan nandoon yun bangka papunta sa diving area. basta gets mo na yun. at syempre makikita ko yun mga whale shark, shark at mga pawikan :) kasi 100 meters ata yun. pero wala pa kong Advance Diving Permit kaya. BOO. kukuha na talaga ako ng course na yun. 2 months puro diving lang. basta magleleave ako someday. haha ;P or pagkagraduate :D para lang makapagdive anywhere in the world :)
gusto ko sa Malapascua Island, down in Mindanao. :) para cool diba :D i got my license in Cebu Mactan. the youngest girl to get her license ever for Open water Diving. :) pero what the heck.
grr. nagkatotoo yun sabi ko. as usual. na nagkaroon ako habang wala ka para GAME na kapag nandito ka. pero ang hirap pa la. unlike before na i had someone to care for the pain i feel now i dont. i know you care pero since wala ka. wala talaga akong makausap. i am so dependent on you. and i know you like it. haha. ikaw pa. YOU ARE SO POSSESIVE. i like din naman e.
so nasa crocodile farm ka? gusto ko touch yun crocodile as in yun mouth! :) tapos kiliti ko. haha :P kakagatin kaya ako noon? pero natouch ko na tail ng crocodile. pero baby lang. sa thailand. tsaka cobra. pero walang venom. cool kaya. hahaha. parang wala akong takot sa animals except for frogs. at gusto ko patayin ang dolphin! HMPH! nakakairita!
hay. nasa palawan ka. and im here stuck in my comfy bed wishing you are here by my side. kahit nagiisnorr ok lang basta alam kong nandito ka sa tabi ko. kasi my tummy hurts. i want you to take care of me. please. let me be your baby. haha ibaby mo ko kahit paminsan minsan :(
wala lang miss na kasi kita e. *tears*
gusto ko sa palawan kasi fresh air. at may matutulugan akong malapit sa diving area. well di malapit talaga pero malapit sa daungan kung saan nandoon yun bangka papunta sa diving area. basta gets mo na yun. at syempre makikita ko yun mga whale shark, shark at mga pawikan :) kasi 100 meters ata yun. pero wala pa kong Advance Diving Permit kaya. BOO. kukuha na talaga ako ng course na yun. 2 months puro diving lang. basta magleleave ako someday. haha ;P or pagkagraduate :D para lang makapagdive anywhere in the world :)
gusto ko sa Malapascua Island, down in Mindanao. :) para cool diba :D i got my license in Cebu Mactan. the youngest girl to get her license ever for Open water Diving. :) pero what the heck.
grr. nagkatotoo yun sabi ko. as usual. na nagkaroon ako habang wala ka para GAME na kapag nandito ka. pero ang hirap pa la. unlike before na i had someone to care for the pain i feel now i dont. i know you care pero since wala ka. wala talaga akong makausap. i am so dependent on you. and i know you like it. haha. ikaw pa. YOU ARE SO POSSESIVE. i like din naman e.
so nasa crocodile farm ka? gusto ko touch yun crocodile as in yun mouth! :) tapos kiliti ko. haha :P kakagatin kaya ako noon? pero natouch ko na tail ng crocodile. pero baby lang. sa thailand. tsaka cobra. pero walang venom. cool kaya. hahaha. parang wala akong takot sa animals except for frogs. at gusto ko patayin ang dolphin! HMPH! nakakairita!
hay. nasa palawan ka. and im here stuck in my comfy bed wishing you are here by my side. kahit nagiisnorr ok lang basta alam kong nandito ka sa tabi ko. kasi my tummy hurts. i want you to take care of me. please. let me be your baby. haha ibaby mo ko kahit paminsan minsan :(
wala lang miss na kasi kita e. *tears*
Friday, August 31, 2007
happenings :)
okie. ang tagal tagal ko ng hindi nagboblog. since forever na yata ako hindi nagblog. so ano na nga ba ang nangyayari sa buhay buhay natin di ba? well, first of all i am proud to say we are happy people :) happy happy joy joy :D
last time i blogged was.. august 19. and today is august 31. ang tagal na talaga ng difference. rawr. parang di na talaga ako nakakaupo sa computer para lang magtype ng blog :P
august 20. been with you the whole day. holiday today kasi august 21 ay bday ni ninoy aquino and i dunno why they made it a holiday. duh! death anniversary yun. why do we celebrate death? hmm siguro kasi when you celebrate death you also celebrate the value of life. okie. makes sense to me. went to TRINOMA. remember passion fruit? :) sarap di ba. and i hope matapos mo yun sophie's world. sad story sya. well for me ha XD. pero asteeg kasi yun mga philosophical cheness dyan facts talaga :D
august 21. shucks. seventh month na natin no? pero parang normal day lang. siguro kasi everyday is special na din e. syempre ba naman kasama mo ang mahal mo :) astig no :)
thank you for loving me and accepting me as who i really am. i love you :)
august 22. hindi ko maalala ang nangyari noong araw na 'to. hmm. >.< wednesday to. basta naalala ako, ako nanlibre noong araw na 'to. kasi naurong. haha. :P defense yata namin to e :P at oo tama, i made all the things i need to pass today. including your englres paper. di ka kasi pumasok :( pero ok naman i finished them with time management ;D smile :D
august 23. evan almighty. gawd. now i understand why i wait long in line because i told God i want to be patient. and now i am given the opportunity to be patient. rawr. me no-likey waiting in lines. grr.
august 24. bad day. :( happy day at first but i was tired. at alam ko tired ka din. >.< tapos you walked with me in the rain. :,( im sorry if im insensitive sometimes. i really am. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako ganoon. ang labo ko nga minsan e. as in sobra. pero thank you for being there for me. thru thick and thin. i love you.
august 27. wala dapat may lakad kami nila lea at paula kaso as usual at the last minute lea will continually disregard the honor of fulfilling her promise. aw.. sad. minsan nababadtrip ako sa kanya. i dunno why. naiinis ako. and i feel sick. actually during the whole weekend i did. >.< bakit ba laging walang pasok kapag monday?
august 28. ohmygoodness. :"> i am so touched today. the love of my life went to my house and cooked breakfast for me. although kinain ko sya for dinner. :D im sorry if i havent been much of a help to you these past days. sorry. i want to make it up to you! ano ba pwde ko magawa for you :D? and you waited for me. and i love you! :D i love corn. :D corn is love. :D
august 29. first day of examination :D NETANAL?! oh yeah. hindi ako nahirapan sa test pero sabi ni sir jess maka 70 lang daw ako sa finals GO GO GO 1.0 na ko :D at hindi ka nagINTRODB >.< rawr. but still, i am so going to take it with you :D hindi ka nagreview sa INTROAI T.T
august 30. naku. badtrip ako kay archie. di nilagay before 12 noon yun CD for FILDLAR. tapos sabi wala daw ako. naku. tapos si sammy naforget un chocottes ko. YACK LOSER :P gawd. i love your carbonara. :D kahit sabi mo creamy. masarap pa din :) and the chicken wee love love love sweet love. :D sarap ng chicken. dont worry. i took medicine when i got home :) no itchy bitchy pinkies. :D and HELLO PARADISE :D you want some? :D AMININ :D and sorry kung mabilis un sa FILDLAR na video >.< sorry.
august 31. today. im sorry for the wrong information about the ANMATH1 test. gr. if you fail it is my fault :( that is dala ng konsiyensya ko :( and i didnt become useful for your FILDLAR burning process :,( ang useless ko. pero ha! i love the fact we took a shower together :P hahaha :D weee. i like that. :D making forever start right now ha :D and he likes paradise :)
nga pa la, happy bday sa atchie mo :D and thank you sa lahat. sa concern. everything. :"> i love you. and you don't know how much i value everything about you. im not much of a showy person either. sorry :D and
i love you so much. >:D<
last time i blogged was.. august 19. and today is august 31. ang tagal na talaga ng difference. rawr. parang di na talaga ako nakakaupo sa computer para lang magtype ng blog :P
august 20. been with you the whole day. holiday today kasi august 21 ay bday ni ninoy aquino and i dunno why they made it a holiday. duh! death anniversary yun. why do we celebrate death? hmm siguro kasi when you celebrate death you also celebrate the value of life. okie. makes sense to me. went to TRINOMA. remember passion fruit? :) sarap di ba. and i hope matapos mo yun sophie's world. sad story sya. well for me ha XD. pero asteeg kasi yun mga philosophical cheness dyan facts talaga :D
august 21. shucks. seventh month na natin no? pero parang normal day lang. siguro kasi everyday is special na din e. syempre ba naman kasama mo ang mahal mo :) astig no :)
thank you for loving me and accepting me as who i really am. i love you :)
august 22. hindi ko maalala ang nangyari noong araw na 'to. hmm. >.< wednesday to. basta naalala ako, ako nanlibre noong araw na 'to. kasi naurong. haha. :P defense yata namin to e :P at oo tama, i made all the things i need to pass today. including your englres paper. di ka kasi pumasok :( pero ok naman i finished them with time management ;D smile :D
august 23. evan almighty. gawd. now i understand why i wait long in line because i told God i want to be patient. and now i am given the opportunity to be patient. rawr. me no-likey waiting in lines. grr.
august 24. bad day. :( happy day at first but i was tired. at alam ko tired ka din. >.< tapos you walked with me in the rain. :,( im sorry if im insensitive sometimes. i really am. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako ganoon. ang labo ko nga minsan e. as in sobra. pero thank you for being there for me. thru thick and thin. i love you.
august 27. wala dapat may lakad kami nila lea at paula kaso as usual at the last minute lea will continually disregard the honor of fulfilling her promise. aw.. sad. minsan nababadtrip ako sa kanya. i dunno why. naiinis ako. and i feel sick. actually during the whole weekend i did. >.< bakit ba laging walang pasok kapag monday?
august 28. ohmygoodness. :"> i am so touched today. the love of my life went to my house and cooked breakfast for me. although kinain ko sya for dinner. :D im sorry if i havent been much of a help to you these past days. sorry. i want to make it up to you! ano ba pwde ko magawa for you :D? and you waited for me. and i love you! :D i love corn. :D corn is love. :D
august 29. first day of examination :D NETANAL?! oh yeah. hindi ako nahirapan sa test pero sabi ni sir jess maka 70 lang daw ako sa finals GO GO GO 1.0 na ko :D at hindi ka nagINTRODB >.< rawr. but still, i am so going to take it with you :D hindi ka nagreview sa INTROAI T.T
august 30. naku. badtrip ako kay archie. di nilagay before 12 noon yun CD for FILDLAR. tapos sabi wala daw ako. naku. tapos si sammy naforget un chocottes ko. YACK LOSER :P gawd. i love your carbonara. :D kahit sabi mo creamy. masarap pa din :) and the chicken wee love love love sweet love. :D sarap ng chicken. dont worry. i took medicine when i got home :) no itchy bitchy pinkies. :D and HELLO PARADISE :D you want some? :D AMININ :D and sorry kung mabilis un sa FILDLAR na video >.< sorry.
august 31. today. im sorry for the wrong information about the ANMATH1 test. gr. if you fail it is my fault :( that is dala ng konsiyensya ko :( and i didnt become useful for your FILDLAR burning process :,( ang useless ko. pero ha! i love the fact we took a shower together :P hahaha :D weee. i like that. :D making forever start right now ha :D and he likes paradise :)
nga pa la, happy bday sa atchie mo :D and thank you sa lahat. sa concern. everything. :"> i love you. and you don't know how much i value everything about you. im not much of a showy person either. sorry :D and
i love you so much. >:D<
Sunday, August 19, 2007
mood swings
something is wrong about me. i'm usually happy. most of the time, i mean. and i appreciate every bit of life i have within me. but for an optimist, i am quite the pessimist. i really don't know why. maybe it's due to the fact, i'm idle here at home. i'm sorry if i kept you waiting most of the time. knowing you're not quite patient (just like me), i appreciate what you do to me.
sometimes, i just don't appreciate what i do. that sometimes, i think i am not enough. that i can do more but i know some people are better out there than me. and that i am better than somebody else. but it hinders my determination. i am easily discourage and i am not the type of person who would really go for what she wanted.
i am not a brave heart. however, i would do anything if you want me to. i can change. really. i see myself change dramatically over the last seven months we've been together. and i thank God that i met you. i know i am changing for the better. i am becoming more patient. and life is beginning to unfold its simple joys with you. sometimes, i need to see it. it's like my paradigm is a bit blurred. maybe i need new glasses.
yeah, i just need new glasses.
sometimes, i just don't appreciate what i do. that sometimes, i think i am not enough. that i can do more but i know some people are better out there than me. and that i am better than somebody else. but it hinders my determination. i am easily discourage and i am not the type of person who would really go for what she wanted.
i am not a brave heart. however, i would do anything if you want me to. i can change. really. i see myself change dramatically over the last seven months we've been together. and i thank God that i met you. i know i am changing for the better. i am becoming more patient. and life is beginning to unfold its simple joys with you. sometimes, i need to see it. it's like my paradigm is a bit blurred. maybe i need new glasses.
yeah, i just need new glasses.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
composition
August 15 2007; Hate The Way You Love Me
under the moonlight
you kissed me from behind
i did not know when
you tried to hold my hand
the way you act, the way you care
all that i am seems to find you somewhere
and your kiss your touch
how you make me feel
how the world seems to stop and be so clear
how my life changed and you choose me
i never thought that i could be
so deep in love i heard my heart beat
and i hate you
i hate the way you love me
it didn't just happen
the sky's star were all aligned
and you said that you love me
in the sweet sincere way i want it to be
and your words your eyes
how you make me feel
how the world seems to stop and be so clear
how my life changed and you choose me
i never thought that i could be
so deep in love i heard my heart beat
and i hate you
i hate the way you love me
you'll risk your life, you live
you'd give me everything
how your love can consume
how it made me me
and it doesn't meant that i don't want you
cause the more you hate, the more i love you
and your words your eyes
how you make me feel
how the world seems to stop and be so clear
how my life changed and you choose me
i never thought that i could be
so deep in love i heard my heart beat
and i hate you
yes i hate the way you love me
because that's how i love you
under the moonlight
you kissed me from behind
i did not know when
you tried to hold my hand
the way you act, the way you care
all that i am seems to find you somewhere
and your kiss your touch
how you make me feel
how the world seems to stop and be so clear
how my life changed and you choose me
i never thought that i could be
so deep in love i heard my heart beat
and i hate you
i hate the way you love me
it didn't just happen
the sky's star were all aligned
and you said that you love me
in the sweet sincere way i want it to be
and your words your eyes
how you make me feel
how the world seems to stop and be so clear
how my life changed and you choose me
i never thought that i could be
so deep in love i heard my heart beat
and i hate you
i hate the way you love me
you'll risk your life, you live
you'd give me everything
how your love can consume
how it made me me
and it doesn't meant that i don't want you
cause the more you hate, the more i love you
and your words your eyes
how you make me feel
how the world seems to stop and be so clear
how my life changed and you choose me
i never thought that i could be
so deep in love i heard my heart beat
and i hate you
yes i hate the way you love me
because that's how i love you
Thursday, August 9, 2007
hello love. minsan nakakapagod magtrabaho sa bahay or mastuck sa bahay. parang feel ko papayat ako pag walang pasok lagi sa school. even though every now and then kain ako ng kain :D
grabe parang ang dami ko namang ginagawa. naku naku. at least madami din akong natapos. ang linis na ng lugar ko sa Second Floor considering nabasa sya ng ulan dahil madaming bintana dito. and maayos na din ang cabinet ko.
tapos parang im running against time doon sa FILDLAR thingie namin. nako kailangan kong matapos 'to before anything else. grr. and i am all alone kahit ang dami kong kagroup. parang ako lang yun gumagalaw. OH well, asa naman ako. inuutusan ko na nga si joc e. wawa naman. haha nagiging bossy ako sa kanya. e kasi sya lang available utusan e. di naman online si lex at si nick tapos si chie madami daw ginagawa.
oh yeah. i am this considerate. and i want to be less bitter. i'll put all my bitterness in my little notebook and shut my mouth when i am about to say something.
yeah even in NETANAL. i am super going to listen kasi dinivide yun quiz into four parts and 25% each sya. tapos bawal makipag usap sa katabi. so whattheheck i need to listen to his blabs even though sometimes i really can't understand him.
hay drew. >.< i feel so tired of school work but im happy. parang im doing a lot and it drives me to do something. oh well manuel. im going to start the half blood prince and harry potpot. gwen's going to be a bookworm to. para hindi ko na maisip yun ibang bagay sa buhay na hindi naman dapat isipin like worth of a thing.
because you can make the most out of life if you don't think about the negative things. and yeah your birthday is coming up so soon. and i still don't have a present for you. gusto mo ng sayaw? haha :P joke lang. madedelay yun book kasi ayaw ibigay sakin ni mom yun money ko. grr. at wala pa din akong baon for how many weeks na? grr. >.< since forever na ata ako walang baon. :(( kawawa naman ako after all the plates i have washed. but then it made me stronger.
and i want more foot spa. grr. even though ako yun nagbabayad for my own massage, manicure, pedicure and foot spa. grr. bye bye 300 tomorrow. im going to miss you. sunday pa pala. hay ewan. :P
basta new lesson to be learned by gwen
go me :D
and yeah.
i really love you :D
grabe parang ang dami ko namang ginagawa. naku naku. at least madami din akong natapos. ang linis na ng lugar ko sa Second Floor considering nabasa sya ng ulan dahil madaming bintana dito. and maayos na din ang cabinet ko.
tapos parang im running against time doon sa FILDLAR thingie namin. nako kailangan kong matapos 'to before anything else. grr. and i am all alone kahit ang dami kong kagroup. parang ako lang yun gumagalaw. OH well, asa naman ako. inuutusan ko na nga si joc e. wawa naman. haha nagiging bossy ako sa kanya. e kasi sya lang available utusan e. di naman online si lex at si nick tapos si chie madami daw ginagawa.
oh yeah. i am this considerate. and i want to be less bitter. i'll put all my bitterness in my little notebook and shut my mouth when i am about to say something.
yeah even in NETANAL. i am super going to listen kasi dinivide yun quiz into four parts and 25% each sya. tapos bawal makipag usap sa katabi. so whattheheck i need to listen to his blabs even though sometimes i really can't understand him.
hay drew. >.< i feel so tired of school work but im happy. parang im doing a lot and it drives me to do something. oh well manuel. im going to start the half blood prince and harry potpot. gwen's going to be a bookworm to. para hindi ko na maisip yun ibang bagay sa buhay na hindi naman dapat isipin like worth of a thing.
because you can make the most out of life if you don't think about the negative things. and yeah your birthday is coming up so soon. and i still don't have a present for you. gusto mo ng sayaw? haha :P joke lang. madedelay yun book kasi ayaw ibigay sakin ni mom yun money ko. grr. at wala pa din akong baon for how many weeks na? grr. >.< since forever na ata ako walang baon. :(( kawawa naman ako after all the plates i have washed. but then it made me stronger.
and i want more foot spa. grr. even though ako yun nagbabayad for my own massage, manicure, pedicure and foot spa. grr. bye bye 300 tomorrow. im going to miss you. sunday pa pala. hay ewan. :P
basta new lesson to be learned by gwen
be kind to other people,
even though they are not kind to you!
go me :D
and yeah.
i really love you :D
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
it's raining
and i would want to get wet with you. ^.^
ayaw mo noon naligo na tayo together kaso under the rain nga lang. susunod under the shower na. ^^. haha. wish ko lang. kung pwede lang. SECRET!!!!!
ang sarap naman mabasa dahil dumaan ang sasakyan. kala ko embarrassing 'di pa la ^^.
ang saya din naman na kasama ka sa ulan. habang lumalakas. at sana mahulog ako ulit. kasi nahuhulog ako ulit e. sa sobrang pagmamahal mo sakin.
'di ko nararamdaman 'yong sakit ng mga sugat at ng mga pasa dahil pinupuno mo ang puso ko ng sobrang pagmamahal.
at mahal na mahal kita. ^_^ sobra!
ayaw mo noon naligo na tayo together kaso under the rain nga lang. susunod under the shower na. ^^. haha. wish ko lang. kung pwede lang. SECRET!!!!!
ang sarap naman mabasa dahil dumaan ang sasakyan. kala ko embarrassing 'di pa la ^^.
ang saya din naman na kasama ka sa ulan. habang lumalakas. at sana mahulog ako ulit. kasi nahuhulog ako ulit e. sa sobrang pagmamahal mo sakin.
'di ko nararamdaman 'yong sakit ng mga sugat at ng mga pasa dahil pinupuno mo ang puso ko ng sobrang pagmamahal.
at mahal na mahal kita. ^_^ sobra!
Monday, August 6, 2007
drew, i promise you P-R-O-M-I-S-E that i would not get tired of loving you and being there for you. i will always be here waiting patiently, seeking what i really want in life.
after some time, i find myself not wanting anything not because i have everything.
i have you.
you are my everything.
what more could i wish for. what more could i want?
when everything i will ever want and ever need is mine.
and i am yours.
eternally.
after some time, i find myself not wanting anything not because i have everything.
i have you.
you are my everything.
what more could i wish for. what more could i want?
when everything i will ever want and ever need is mine.
and i am yours.
eternally.
Sunday, August 5, 2007
Love Pasagot ^_^
:WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF::
1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:
::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:
::WOULD YOU::
13. Be my friend?:
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?:
15. Hold my hand?:
16. Take a bullet for me?:
17. Keep in touch?:
18. Try and solve my problems?:
19. Love me?:
20. Date me?:
21. Sing with me?:
::HAVE YOU EVER::
22. Lied to make me feel better?:
23. Wanted to kiss me?:
24. Wanted to kill me?:
25. Broke my heart?
26. Kept something important from me?:
27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?:
::MORE::
28. Who are you?:
29. Are we friends?:
30. When and how did we meet?:
31. Describe me in one word:
32. What was your first impression?:
33. Do you still think that way about me now?
34. What reminds you of me?:
35. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
36. How well do you know me?:
37. When's the last time you saw me?:
38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
39. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?
1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:
::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:
::WOULD YOU::
13. Be my friend?:
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?:
15. Hold my hand?:
16. Take a bullet for me?:
17. Keep in touch?:
18. Try and solve my problems?:
19. Love me?:
20. Date me?:
21. Sing with me?:
::HAVE YOU EVER::
22. Lied to make me feel better?:
23. Wanted to kiss me?:
24. Wanted to kill me?:
25. Broke my heart?
26. Kept something important from me?:
27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?:
::MORE::
28. Who are you?:
29. Are we friends?:
30. When and how did we meet?:
31. Describe me in one word:
32. What was your first impression?:
33. Do you still think that way about me now?
34. What reminds you of me?:
35. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
36. How well do you know me?:
37. When's the last time you saw me?:
38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
39. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?
Saturday, August 4, 2007
..stick figures..
i am not the best person to talk to about emotions because i also find myself drowned in them. i am not good in expressing emotions as words since i get lost in myself looking for the right words where in the end i do not find any to describe how i feel. i write a lot but it does not mean i am able to find the words that pack such great depth. i write in normal language, in lay man's terms. and this goes out to theater and all the other field of arts i have been through. in performing arts, you have a routine, lines to memorize and actions you have to express by heart. you put yourself in another person shoes not really yours. it is quite lucky if you find yourself doing the things that you really do. where like in the movies, you act as yourself.
in drawing, i am not really much of a Leonardo. neither am i a Picasso or a Van Gogh. i am more of myself. settling for a few strokes of lines, a couple of circles and curves. a little bit of emotion and inks from my pen. i am like that. when i can not find the words to speak, i express through figures. because sometimes, words are never enough to capture what i really want to say. that a couple of stick figures really does the thing.
i am not the most patient of all people. and neither am i the most persevere of others. i am still changing. even though i have changed. and i owe a lot of the improvement to you. i have been bitter since before, and now i think i am going to change that. i want to see the beauty of life through my eyes. that somehow, the whole world's essence can be captured when i look at myself in the eye. i want it to communicate that life is a big fairy tale we are all part of. that trials and sorrow all sum up to strength and joy. that happily ever after can come true.
and i am not giving up my childish views on life no matter how many people criticize me. simply because this pieces of junk have more essence than the criticism of even New York edition critics or even Paris can never amount to.
because i am beginning to be true to myself. i am not that appealing to people and some get intimidated by me. but this is who i really am and i do not want their attention. i just want to express what i feel. because i am me. i want to be me. i love to be me.
and please, never give up on loving me. please.
because i will never stop loving you. even after, my heart has stopped beating.
there is no death in love. neither is there life. only love. pure unconditional love.
in drawing, i am not really much of a Leonardo. neither am i a Picasso or a Van Gogh. i am more of myself. settling for a few strokes of lines, a couple of circles and curves. a little bit of emotion and inks from my pen. i am like that. when i can not find the words to speak, i express through figures. because sometimes, words are never enough to capture what i really want to say. that a couple of stick figures really does the thing.
i am not the most patient of all people. and neither am i the most persevere of others. i am still changing. even though i have changed. and i owe a lot of the improvement to you. i have been bitter since before, and now i think i am going to change that. i want to see the beauty of life through my eyes. that somehow, the whole world's essence can be captured when i look at myself in the eye. i want it to communicate that life is a big fairy tale we are all part of. that trials and sorrow all sum up to strength and joy. that happily ever after can come true.
and i am not giving up my childish views on life no matter how many people criticize me. simply because this pieces of junk have more essence than the criticism of even New York edition critics or even Paris can never amount to.
because i am beginning to be true to myself. i am not that appealing to people and some get intimidated by me. but this is who i really am and i do not want their attention. i just want to express what i feel. because i am me. i want to be me. i love to be me.
and please, never give up on loving me. please.
because i will never stop loving you. even after, my heart has stopped beating.
there is no death in love. neither is there life. only love. pure unconditional love.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
i have just finished the orange girl novel by jostein gaardner. and i say he is one of the most profound writers of all time. all his novels seem to have a bit of universe in them but limiting to the world we call EARTH. he has the perfect blend of philosophical riddles but at the same time mind twisting stories you can't help but think twice. the orange girl is really a modern fairy tale since it could happen to anyone. and it is not far from being true either. maybe once in a lifetime someone named veronika fell in love with jon olav. and they discover this book and decided to name their son georg. the more i'd be delighted when i find that they live in Norway.
when you choose life, you choose death. sad but true. it is the unbearable true we must all learn to live by. and hoping for something that is unlikely to happen is something we call hope.
i'm tired. i think i need rest.
when you choose life, you choose death. sad but true. it is the unbearable true we must all learn to live by. and hoping for something that is unlikely to happen is something we call hope.
i'm tired. i think i need rest.
i am having the attention deficit syndrome and i want attention. haha from you. wala lang napakababaw kong tao. gusto ko lahat ng attention mo nasa akin. joke lang. yack ang loser ko na talaga. gusto ko ikaw lang. wala akong care sa iba. wee nagiging monogamous na ko. HOY infairness improving ako :) wala lang natutuwa lang ako na i can wait for you without PM-ing anybody to talk to me. of course nagrereply ako pagPiniPM nila ako. pero i dont start conversations. wohoo MILESTONE.
:)
:)
Saturday, July 14, 2007
i'm just too emotional
before i met you i was not scared of dying kasi nothing mattered much. i had friends, family and a whole bunch of acquaintances or connections i could utilized but in the end i see my life as lived for others and not much of the "ME" part. i was a performer because i had the urge to satisfy the audience and their satisfaction was the drive for my passion. i was a leader because i had the urge to serve other people although unappreciated most of the time. i eventually let go since i was getting too much critique.
but since i met you, i laid low. i stopped the leadership, and i began to realize who i was. i sang for the last time shaking. since, i felt i should be talking or rather texting you than singing in front of an audience who won't even care. it was a one time show and before, it would mean a lot. but then, it was pointless. to be appointed as a vice governor, even though i should have been the governor, is still useless because i could spend more of my time with you.
so you see, i had the knack for you even though you thought i didn't. and i'm really scared of death more than ever. because i see that life ends with death. or not really but i don't want to think about that. the more i look back to how i tackled about death before, the more i realized i changed a lot. before death was a neutral thing to me. it just passes by. but now, it seems like a thief. and i'm scared it will come. kasi wala namang nakakatakas sa kamatayan. lahat tayo mamamatay din. yun un nakakatakot. ayoko.
kasi nandyan ka.
but since i met you, i laid low. i stopped the leadership, and i began to realize who i was. i sang for the last time shaking. since, i felt i should be talking or rather texting you than singing in front of an audience who won't even care. it was a one time show and before, it would mean a lot. but then, it was pointless. to be appointed as a vice governor, even though i should have been the governor, is still useless because i could spend more of my time with you.
so you see, i had the knack for you even though you thought i didn't. and i'm really scared of death more than ever. because i see that life ends with death. or not really but i don't want to think about that. the more i look back to how i tackled about death before, the more i realized i changed a lot. before death was a neutral thing to me. it just passes by. but now, it seems like a thief. and i'm scared it will come. kasi wala namang nakakatakas sa kamatayan. lahat tayo mamamatay din. yun un nakakatakot. ayoko.
kasi nandyan ka.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
i blab a lot. paano mo ko natatagalan. ang daldal ko pero walang kasense sense mga sinasabi ko. i'm not sweet. i'm not romantic. i'm not even understanding. i'm a self proclaimed selfish girl living in a world with too much air. too much fantasy. LIBRA ako. i'm suppose to be like that. grr. pero am i? hay ang labo ko talaga. bakit ba ako malabo. kasi 300+ na ang grado ng mata ko.
makwento ba ko? T_T
makwento ba ko? T_T
stupid parent-child talks. they are driving me crazy. pero totoo naman 'yun sinabi ni mama.
the guy is suppose to pay for everything. pero nasa isip ko, my friend is freaking right. high maintenance pa la ako. i just don't admit it to myself. siguro kasi lumaki ako sa boundary ng extravagance at low profile life. pero i'm okay with simple life. na may nakakain three times a day. nakakaligo. may electricity. tubig. internet connection. cable. money. okie. so i am kinda poofed.
sabi ni mama kailangan ko daw ng mayamang asawa. para wala na kong gawin kung hindi i-continue ang life na kinagisnan ko. she doesn't see me working. kasi tamad ako. gusto ko lang magtravel. culture. magbasa. maglakwatsa. makakilala ng ibang tao at malaman ang buhay nila. or makalikot. gusto ko maging pilot. para landing lang poproblemahin ko. kasi mahirap maglanding. gusto ko magpiloto ever since i had a trip where we almost landed but didn't. parang sa movies na kala mo maglaland pero nagtake off kasi traffic sa port. well ganun. galing kasi e. aerodynamics. ibang klase. galing kasi e. naamaze ako.
at masaya maging pilot. pero you still have to finish a four year course to admit and become a pilot. preferably engineering and the like. so ipupursue ko un course ko ng walang bagsak tapos aaral ako maging piloto. ayaw mo nun. free ticket to the whole world. at mataas ang sweldo. considering the risks involved in being a pilot. BUT what the heck e gusto ko maging pilot e.
wala lang. cool kasi e. hay. and besides 100k per month ang sweldo + the benefits of traveling wherever you want. gusto ko na talaga maging pilot. hay. these dreams. T_T stupid dreams.
maybe i'll just sit and become a fat house wife while i wait for you from work. and read and read. and play tennis. or become a tennis instructor para di naman ako fat.
nawawalan na din kasi ng sense ang college e. if i ever want to pursue something i would really love. theology un. or haha. psychology. or something with relation to life and people. YUN practical na talaga. i really don't like this feeling. ang worthless ko sobra. kahit sa iyo. parang feel ko ikaw lang nagmamahal. parang di mo nafefeel na mahal kita. gusto ko mafeel mo pero lagi na lang tayo nag aaway dahil feel mo hindi kita mahal. ang worthless ko. sabi mo masasanay ka na lang. or kalimutan na lang. me and my spoiled brat attitude. spoiled din ako e. too much love.
i never felt rejected. except when you came. doon ako natakot mareject kasi baka masakit. kaya kapag iniwan mo ko, alam ko na feeling ng rejection and i would probably be depressed somewhere. becoming anorexic or even better, in the jungles of Brazil as a missionary.
i'm not happy with my life. or what i would be doing in the future. gusto ko may worth lahat ng ginagawa ko. kahit impossible minsan kasi isa akong walang sense na tao. i worry about weight loss when a lot of people are suffering from malnutrition. minsan ang babaw ko sobra. actually lagi naman akong mababaw e. di ko lang alam. crystal clear water nga ako. walang kalaliman kasi kahit akala mo malalim un tubig. mababaw lang. parang sa shore. sa Caribbean . kala mo malalim. pero mababaw lang. may current nga lang pero lahat namang ng part ng dagat may current e. okay wala na naman akong sense.
i am a self proclaimed mentally ill person. please be patient with me.
ayokong mawala ka.
the guy is suppose to pay for everything. pero nasa isip ko, my friend is freaking right. high maintenance pa la ako. i just don't admit it to myself. siguro kasi lumaki ako sa boundary ng extravagance at low profile life. pero i'm okay with simple life. na may nakakain three times a day. nakakaligo. may electricity. tubig. internet connection. cable. money. okie. so i am kinda poofed.
sabi ni mama kailangan ko daw ng mayamang asawa. para wala na kong gawin kung hindi i-continue ang life na kinagisnan ko. she doesn't see me working. kasi tamad ako. gusto ko lang magtravel. culture. magbasa. maglakwatsa. makakilala ng ibang tao at malaman ang buhay nila. or makalikot. gusto ko maging pilot. para landing lang poproblemahin ko. kasi mahirap maglanding. gusto ko magpiloto ever since i had a trip where we almost landed but didn't. parang sa movies na kala mo maglaland pero nagtake off kasi traffic sa port. well ganun. galing kasi e. aerodynamics. ibang klase. galing kasi e. naamaze ako.
at masaya maging pilot. pero you still have to finish a four year course to admit and become a pilot. preferably engineering and the like. so ipupursue ko un course ko ng walang bagsak tapos aaral ako maging piloto. ayaw mo nun. free ticket to the whole world. at mataas ang sweldo. considering the risks involved in being a pilot. BUT what the heck e gusto ko maging pilot e.
wala lang. cool kasi e. hay. and besides 100k per month ang sweldo + the benefits of traveling wherever you want. gusto ko na talaga maging pilot. hay. these dreams. T_T stupid dreams.
maybe i'll just sit and become a fat house wife while i wait for you from work. and read and read. and play tennis. or become a tennis instructor para di naman ako fat.
nawawalan na din kasi ng sense ang college e. if i ever want to pursue something i would really love. theology un. or haha. psychology. or something with relation to life and people. YUN practical na talaga. i really don't like this feeling. ang worthless ko sobra. kahit sa iyo. parang feel ko ikaw lang nagmamahal. parang di mo nafefeel na mahal kita. gusto ko mafeel mo pero lagi na lang tayo nag aaway dahil feel mo hindi kita mahal. ang worthless ko. sabi mo masasanay ka na lang. or kalimutan na lang. me and my spoiled brat attitude. spoiled din ako e. too much love.
i never felt rejected. except when you came. doon ako natakot mareject kasi baka masakit. kaya kapag iniwan mo ko, alam ko na feeling ng rejection and i would probably be depressed somewhere. becoming anorexic or even better, in the jungles of Brazil as a missionary.
i'm not happy with my life. or what i would be doing in the future. gusto ko may worth lahat ng ginagawa ko. kahit impossible minsan kasi isa akong walang sense na tao. i worry about weight loss when a lot of people are suffering from malnutrition. minsan ang babaw ko sobra. actually lagi naman akong mababaw e. di ko lang alam. crystal clear water nga ako. walang kalaliman kasi kahit akala mo malalim un tubig. mababaw lang. parang sa shore. sa Caribbean . kala mo malalim. pero mababaw lang. may current nga lang pero lahat namang ng part ng dagat may current e. okay wala na naman akong sense.
i am a self proclaimed mentally ill person. please be patient with me.
ayokong mawala ka.
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
hi drew
this is probably the second time i used this title. pero what the heck! okie lang. ^.^
let me guess, you are out with your family in Trinoma or Greenhills watching NEXT featuring Nicholas Cage, J. Moore and J. Biel(i don't know their first names!)
ang ganda ng movie. napanood ko na s'ya kaninang hapon after we went to Mass. astig no? ang pretty pa nung girl. when you look at the future, it changes. ^.^ and ang cool magkaroon ng ganoon powers. pwedeng magcheat sa test. JOKE lang! pero pwede naman di ba?! put your POWERS to GOOD USE! have perfect grades :)
and Mass was pleasant. i loved the topic. faithfulness. in everything you do.
faithfulness. in loving you!
NOTE to self: i'm going to get Confirmation this August. para pwede ako ikasal sa simbahan AND pwede na akong maging fruitful person for God. siguro may matututunan akong bago sa seminar. wala lang. i'm not religious.
i read this thing about Einstein and shucks. i was amazed at how much he knew about love and life. i want my own diary again. and this time, i'll make sure my mom doesn't read it. she knows too much. ang dami niyang alam. haha. ^.^
pero siguro one reason kaya wala na kong diary, kasi i have you. to tell everything. to listen to everything. even though nahihirapan pa din ako sa OPENness thing na yan. haha. pero i'm learning. and thank you. for being patient with me ^.^
and yes, i remembered. i met someone today who happens to be a professor in the Theology Department of De La Salle University. Actually, si mama may kakilala :P pero i talked to him. and he knows Dr. Monera. haha. :)
wala lang share ko lang.
let me guess, you are out with your family in Trinoma or Greenhills watching NEXT featuring Nicholas Cage, J. Moore and J. Biel(i don't know their first names!)
ang ganda ng movie. napanood ko na s'ya kaninang hapon after we went to Mass. astig no? ang pretty pa nung girl. when you look at the future, it changes. ^.^ and ang cool magkaroon ng ganoon powers. pwedeng magcheat sa test. JOKE lang! pero pwede naman di ba?! put your POWERS to GOOD USE! have perfect grades :)
and Mass was pleasant. i loved the topic. faithfulness. in everything you do.
faithfulness. in loving you!
NOTE to self: i'm going to get Confirmation this August. para pwede ako ikasal sa simbahan AND pwede na akong maging fruitful person for God. siguro may matututunan akong bago sa seminar. wala lang. i'm not religious.
i read this thing about Einstein and shucks. i was amazed at how much he knew about love and life. i want my own diary again. and this time, i'll make sure my mom doesn't read it. she knows too much. ang dami niyang alam. haha. ^.^
pero siguro one reason kaya wala na kong diary, kasi i have you. to tell everything. to listen to everything. even though nahihirapan pa din ako sa OPENness thing na yan. haha. pero i'm learning. and thank you. for being patient with me ^.^
and yes, i remembered. i met someone today who happens to be a professor in the Theology Department of De La Salle University. Actually, si mama may kakilala :P pero i talked to him. and he knows Dr. Monera. haha. :)
wala lang share ko lang.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
the reason why boys fall in love with girls
1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo.
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. The way her hand always finds yours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight.
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" - even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".
18. Actually... Just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt. * i think every girl is guilty of this :)
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt (even though we don't admit it).
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...
Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart..
A feeling...
Only felt...
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. The way her hand always finds yours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight.
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" - even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".
18. Actually... Just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt. * i think every girl is guilty of this :)
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt (even though we don't admit it).
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...
Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart..
A feeling...
Only felt...
Friday, June 15, 2007
when i asked you if you would love me even if i didn't love you.
and now i feel empty.
i want to be with you.
i smiled when you PMed yes.
the last emotion i felt was sorrow.
it was when i saw you go up the stairs.
it was when i saw you go up the stairs.
and now i feel empty.
i want to be with you.
i'm crying.
am i sad?
am i sad?
please tell me what i am feeling.
if i am feeling something.
if i am feeling something.
i want to hug you.
but i can't.
but i can't.
i hate this.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Thursday, June 7, 2007
expectation number 1
gwen foster: ginawa mo si sign number 1
gwen foster: partly
gwen foster: sige night night
gwen foster: love you
Andrew Alegre: aww
Andrew Alegre: love you too
gwen foster: di pa la sya sign
gwen foster: expectation pa la
gwen foster: hahaha
gwen foster: ginawa mo si expectation number 1 thankshooooooo
Andrew Alegre: aww
Andrew Alegre: ano un?
gwen foster: hahahahaha tumawag ka ng hindi ko sinasabing tumawag ka
Andrew Alegre: aww
Andrew Alegre:
gwen foster: nung second kasi pinatawag na kita e
gwen foster: kaso nga lang
gwen foster: ako naman pinatawag mo
gwen foster: hahaha
gwen foster: kaya partly lang
gwen foster: di mo pa talaga nagagawa as a whole
gwen foster: partly
gwen foster: sige night night
gwen foster: love you
Andrew Alegre: aww
Andrew Alegre: love you too
gwen foster: di pa la sya sign
gwen foster: expectation pa la
gwen foster: hahaha
gwen foster: ginawa mo si expectation number 1 thankshooooooo
Andrew Alegre: aww
Andrew Alegre: ano un?
gwen foster: hahahahaha tumawag ka ng hindi ko sinasabing tumawag ka
Andrew Alegre: aww
Andrew Alegre:
gwen foster: nung second kasi pinatawag na kita e
gwen foster: kaso nga lang
gwen foster: ako naman pinatawag mo
gwen foster: hahaha
gwen foster: kaya partly lang
gwen foster: di mo pa talaga nagagawa as a whole
psychologically speaking
shit. drew. natututo na ko mag-expect. and let's say and hirap pa la mag-expect kasi hindi ko nakukuha kahit ni-isang bagay na inexpect ko. parang ang hirap pa la ng ganoon. kasi hindi mo masabi na 'yun ang ineexpect mo pero gusto mo s'ya mangyari. parang sana gawin yun out of his/her own consent and not because somebody else told him/her to. tapos sana yun mga circumstances magyari sila dahil dapat silang mangyari or dahil gusto ng ibang tao na mangyari din yun. hirap no? hirap pa la mag-expect.
parang ang hirap talaga. OFF LIMITS i suck at these things. i suck at expecting. kaya pa la all my life i didn't expect. kasi masakit pa la. mahirap. at masakit.
parang ang hirap talaga. OFF LIMITS i suck at these things. i suck at expecting. kaya pa la all my life i didn't expect. kasi masakit pa la. mahirap. at masakit.
69th post ko
mwaahahahah wala lang. natawa ako kasi 69 post ko na to. wohoo. pasok ka sa school ha. after this hindi na ko magaabsent magcucut or magwhawhatever. nag aaral ako ngayon for NETANAL kasi kailangan e. may departamental exam. at tinatapos ko yun cheness para sa LBYNETN. so ok lang din ang pagiging absent ko dahil nagiging productive naman ako :D
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
hi my love
"kaso isa lang ang puso ko, kahit paulit-ulit mo saktan mamahalin ka pa din"
ang lupet na ng mga OPM. sobra. asteeg sila. ang ganda ganda ng movie. promise. isa pang malupit na line.
ang lupet na ng mga OPM. sobra. asteeg sila. ang ganda ganda ng movie. promise. isa pang malupit na line.
"do you love me? i'm getting there."
wohoo ibang klase talaga si bernal gumawa ng mga pangdrama. tapos may sobrang kulit na tao doon. paulit ulit niyang sinasabi yun life na God is Good. basta ang kulet sobra. natatawa kami pero syempre may mga seriousness din yun movie. pero ang lupet nila gumawa.
tapos namiss kita. sa isang part ng movie.
drew. wag ka na lang pumunta bukas. 430 na uwian mo e. darating ka sa bahay 530. gabi na. sayang sa time. pero desisyon mo pa din. pero. waah baka hindi mo alam papunta. takot ako. kasama ko din si tammy sa bahay. wala lang pati si tito ex-soldier. wala lang. ikaw kung gusto mo pumunta. hindi ako makakapuntang school e. wala lang. wala kasing kwenta TredTwo. actually meron. pero tinatamad lang talaga ako. SOBRA! kaya ayun. aabsent na lang din ako. break ko na din ito from all the stress.
pero ikaw. it's your desisyon. kaso gabi na e. dangerous.
tapos namiss kita. sa isang part ng movie.
drew. wag ka na lang pumunta bukas. 430 na uwian mo e. darating ka sa bahay 530. gabi na. sayang sa time. pero desisyon mo pa din. pero. waah baka hindi mo alam papunta. takot ako. kasama ko din si tammy sa bahay. wala lang pati si tito ex-soldier. wala lang. ikaw kung gusto mo pumunta. hindi ako makakapuntang school e. wala lang. wala kasing kwenta TredTwo. actually meron. pero tinatamad lang talaga ako. SOBRA! kaya ayun. aabsent na lang din ako. break ko na din ito from all the stress.
pero ikaw. it's your desisyon. kaso gabi na e. dangerous.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Saturday, June 2, 2007
todoo
sana naman pumasok ka na sa monday. para hindi na ganoon kadami ang mamimiss mong lessons at hindi ka maaaring sumbatan ng professor na hindi ka pumapasok. pagawa ka kay tita ng excuse letter na absent ka. dahil may sakit ka. or ikaw. hmmm FORGE natin! haha bad yun. pero kinakailangan para excused ang absences. yack. nevermind. haha wag na lang. masyadong pormal. na hindi naman nararapat.
habang ako ay nasa sakayan ng tren kanina, aking napagtanto na ikaw ang magandang ehemplo ng isang makabagong kalalakihan. or ako nga ba talaga ang lalaki sa atin. (kung ganoon okay lang na ganyan ka) sige paninindigan ko na. ako na ang lalake. ako na ang pupunta sa bahay, maghahatid, manlilibre (oops. walang kokontra. dapat lalake ang nagbabayad hahaha ^_^) at kung ano pa man. pero ok lang. siguro kasi ganito lang talaga ako.pero minsan.. pero wag nalang. 'di ako sanay na ako ang pinagsisilbihan. sobra. mas sanay ako na ako yun servant. todoo. toink. servant leadership. isa akong tupa. na kabilang sa tatlumpu't pitong tupa. hahaha hindi puta. hindi hiejo de puta. bad yun. hindi nararapat bigkasin ang mga nilalatay sa mga haliparo. haha. (okay ako na yun salbahe. discriminatory!BOO!) pero ayun. bagamat ako ay nagdadalawang isip kung ako nga ba talaga ang babae, pupunta na ako sa desisyong magpapakalalake na ako para sa iyo.
sisikapin kong mawala ang mga pag-iba ng pagtrato at pagiging malamig. kasi hindi dapat ganoon. bad yun. bad ako. kasi ginawa ko s'ya. hindi na mauulit sa abot ng aking makakaya. dahil dapat intindihin ko kung bakit ka kumikilos ng ganoon na ako din naman ang may sala bakit ganoon ang reaksyon mo. masyado siguro akong biolente. kaya't babawasan ko na ang papaging ganoon ko. dapat hindi kita nasasaktan sa aspetong pisikal. at aabtuin ko iyon sa abot ng aking makakaya.
sabagay, naririto ako sa mundo hindi para saktan ka kaya't nararapat lang mahalin ang isang anghel na tulad mong walang dinulot na kalungkutan sa pamumuhay ko.
NOSE BLEED!
habang ako ay nasa sakayan ng tren kanina, aking napagtanto na ikaw ang magandang ehemplo ng isang makabagong kalalakihan. or ako nga ba talaga ang lalaki sa atin. (kung ganoon okay lang na ganyan ka) sige paninindigan ko na. ako na ang lalake. ako na ang pupunta sa bahay, maghahatid, manlilibre (oops. walang kokontra. dapat lalake ang nagbabayad hahaha ^_^) at kung ano pa man. pero ok lang. siguro kasi ganito lang talaga ako.
sisikapin kong mawala ang mga pag-iba ng pagtrato at pagiging malamig. kasi hindi dapat ganoon. bad yun. bad ako. kasi ginawa ko s'ya. hindi na mauulit sa abot ng aking makakaya. dahil dapat intindihin ko kung bakit ka kumikilos ng ganoon na ako din naman ang may sala bakit ganoon ang reaksyon mo. masyado siguro akong biolente. kaya't babawasan ko na ang papaging ganoon ko. dapat hindi kita nasasaktan sa aspetong pisikal. at aabtuin ko iyon sa abot ng aking makakaya.
sabagay, naririto ako sa mundo hindi para saktan ka kaya't nararapat lang mahalin ang isang anghel na tulad mong walang dinulot na kalungkutan sa pamumuhay ko.
NOSE BLEED!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
i've got issues
walang sense. kasi 'di ko naman dapat mafeel ang insecurity. pero nafefeel ko s'ya. when you said that the person passed away, natakot ako. magaling lang ako magtago ng takot.
yup. i've got issues. i want to tell you pero tulog ka na. pagaling ka ha. i love you. pasok ka. pero 'pag 'di mo pa din kaya, REST KA! health mo mas important. ok? ^_^
yup. i've got issues. i want to tell you pero tulog ka na. pagaling ka ha. i love you. pasok ka. pero 'pag 'di mo pa din kaya, REST KA! health mo mas important. ok? ^_^
Monday, May 28, 2007
hmm.
i can't sleep. it's raining. i'm scared. kumukulog e. hug ko na lang si andrei. sana nandito ka. sige tatry ko ulit matulog. bago na nga pa la YM ko. kara.gfoster add mo ko. naiinis na ko sa highschool friends. gusto ko silang lahat idelete. wala silang kwenta. di ko sila friend.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
phone call
am still waiting for you. i actually knew na hindi ikaw ang nagbaba ng phone. and it makes me not want to go there much more. it is not really about you. seriously. it's about your family. alam mo na naman na in the first place takot ako sa mom mo. and i now know na hindi s'ya takot. ok mom mo. no doubt about that. and i thank her, that if it wasn't for her "mistake" she would not have given birth to you and if she didn't raise you that way - i would not have know who you are and what have you become. and i actually want to thank her for that. kasi i am so secured with you. and i love you the way you are. and what you will be. ^_^
kaso nga lang, ayoko lang talaga. uncomfortable din ako. halata naman e. do i talk when she is around. rare! nagsasalita lang ako kapag HYPER ako. and i'm not in the idea of her and me being close. nakakatakot. huhu. takot talaga ako. pero ganoon talaga e. ok lang. casual talks pero walang personal talks. siguro when it comes to marriage. but then again. *whistle*
kaso nga lang, ayoko lang talaga. uncomfortable din ako. halata naman e. do i talk when she is around. rare! nagsasalita lang ako kapag HYPER ako. and i'm not in the idea of her and me being close. nakakatakot. huhu. takot talaga ako. pero ganoon talaga e. ok lang. casual talks pero walang personal talks. siguro when it comes to marriage. but then again. *whistle*
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
first day high
you are sweet.
"achusness." more notebook talks during anmath1 ok? sure pass na din naman tayo e. kasi papasok na ko sa AnMath1. ang boring talaga ni ruivivar pero okay s'ya. naaalala ko yun Analytical Geometry teacher ko sa kanya. na kausap lagi yun board pero once nakinig ka, you are bound to pick up something. makikinig na ko kapag Limits na at Derivatives. para mahasa ang powers ko. for now, 'wag muna. i reremember ko na lang ang skills ko sa mga Conic Functions.
mukha ba kong bata? na kawawa.
hay grabe naman ang buhay. kailangan ko ng libro na may mga words na Engineering, Circuit Analysis at kung ano pa. para naman may props ako para (hopefully) maka FOURpointZERO ako sa NetAnal. pero natutuwa ako sa subject na 'yon. i would absolutely learn to love that subject. siguro nga talagang pang Network Engineering ako kasi i love Physics and Electronics. at sana matutunan din nila ako mahalin tulad ng pagmamahal ko sa kanila. mahirap yata yun unrequited love.
natutuwa ka ba kapag kasama mo ako? or nabobored ka. ay wait lang haha alam mo ba na si Denize ayaw kay Jayjay. ayaw niya daw muna ng relationship ngayon college. Ayoko namang ibreak yun spirit ni Jayjay. Gaah. Heartbroken na naman s'ya. tapos si Aids at Leslie close friends na lang. parang nag step down yun feelings ni Aids for Leslie kasi naiilang si Leslie. Ayun ngayon super close na ulit sila. Mas gusto ni Aids ng ganoon. at least hindi naiilang si Leslie. tapos si joc. kamusta na kaya yun lalakeng yun? Buti nakapasok si Mac sa Anmath1 no? or else delayed s'ya. Hirap nun chong.
enough sa buhay nila. hehe. i miss your hugs na drew. ang sarap mo maghug sobra. it makes my hear melt everytime you hug me. aw. i miss your hugs already. it was fun answering all those blogthings with you last night. at least NOW i know you are so CHARISMATIC. that could be the reason why i fell for you. because i can't resist that SMILE and those EYES! *kilig* pero walang biro kinikilig ako ngayon. naiimagine kasi kita e. namimiss ko na din yun tawa mo. na sobrang musika sa pandinig ko. mahal na mahal kita.
and you always make my heart skip a song.
i love you *mwah*
Monday, May 21, 2007
..hold on dear life
i love that song. there is something about it that makes me repeat it a whole lot of times.
yep. sometimes i think i don't deserve this kind of love. but i'm glad i have it. and i won't ever let it go. and i hope you won't. love is something that is two way. and i'm pretty sure you won't let go of the other end. i'm happy to be spending forever with you. and God has given you to me at the perfect moment at the perfect time. in the perfect place and perfect situation. maybe God sees time. even though time is just a mere approximation. God understands the human mind. and human heart. and he understood that i need you.
As the sun shined, down on me,
I know with you in love is where I wanna be,
sometimes, I go on through life,
thinking that love is something that's not meant for me,
yep. sometimes i think i don't deserve this kind of love. but i'm glad i have it. and i won't ever let it go. and i hope you won't. love is something that is two way. and i'm pretty sure you won't let go of the other end. i'm happy to be spending forever with you. and God has given you to me at the perfect moment at the perfect time. in the perfect place and perfect situation. maybe God sees time. even though time is just a mere approximation. God understands the human mind. and human heart. and he understood that i need you.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
things
i want you to..
i may sound selfish but i want to
- be there for me even though you feel like i don't need you. simply because i need you ALWAYS
- give me a tulip for my eighteenth birthday. a single one will do. i don't need a bouquet. i just need ONE that came from you.
- take care of me when i'm sick. and just look at me even though i hide under the pillows.
- wake up with a kiss. when i least expect it. and when i haven't brushed my teeth yet.
- take a picture of me even when i don't want to. and when i feel ugly. and a picture of us every time we see each other.
- take me out to the fireworks with you.
- wake me up on my birthday.
- cook me your specialty.(and you already did. CORNED BEEF? ^_^)
- squish me when i lay on my belly.
i may sound selfish but i want to
- hug you tight when the winds are strong, when it's cold and
- kiss you when it's raining and we're all wet. and the rain will keep pouring harder as we kiss.
- hug you when you're doing something. even when you get irritated. i will just hug you tighter.
- help you when you don't know something and i know it.
- help you reach your dreams.
- hear you laugh your heart out. and know that you laughed because of me.
- make you feel special everyday of OUR lives.
- wake you up in your sleep. and serve you breakfast while in bed. ^_^
- give you a violin for you birthday. and i would.
- spend christmas with you. (while we aren't living together)
- get married when were 25 ^_^
- take you to the beach and watch the sun rise with you.
- sleep with you. and really SLEEP. haha.
- be with you for 24 HOURS without sleeping. ^_^
- wake you up on your birthday. and kiss you.
- give you a sunflower on our 1024th day. (secret ang date chong ^_^)
- give you a pillow for you to hug when you miss me.
Monday, May 14, 2007
hello drew
i'm a bit down and maybe it's because i've been feeling that no one wants to listen to me. maybe just you. i got so use to the fact that everytime people ask me they ask what's happening with everybody else. not me. siguro mahirap pero ok lang. nasanay na din ako e. parang something inside of me wishes that someday someone would finally ask me "kamusta ka na gwen" in the sense that they really DO CARE about me and what is happening in my life.
sometimes people just figure things out. the things that are happening to me not really asking me what is it with me. or maybe since i never really wanted to be understood and i'm not fond of sharing my emotions. ang hirap. parang someday i want to at least feel that someone does care for me and who would be there for me when i need them the most. not because they need me. parang alot of people befriend me only to feel good about themselves. then i figure out that even without them my life does not change. parang ganoon.
hay ewan ko ba. parang wala akong "friend" na may pake sakin. mga user lang silang lahat. naiinis ako. minsan gusto ko naman maalagaan. malaman kung ano ba kaya ko. pero tama na siguro. hindi naman ata mangyayari yoon. sabagay wala naman kasi akong gusto at ayokong magpaalaga. kaya siguro walang nag aalaga sakin.
ako din pa la may gawa ng sarili kong inaasam.
sometimes people just figure things out. the things that are happening to me not really asking me what is it with me. or maybe since i never really wanted to be understood and i'm not fond of sharing my emotions. ang hirap. parang someday i want to at least feel that someone does care for me and who would be there for me when i need them the most. not because they need me. parang alot of people befriend me only to feel good about themselves. then i figure out that even without them my life does not change. parang ganoon.
hay ewan ko ba. parang wala akong "friend" na may pake sakin. mga user lang silang lahat. naiinis ako. minsan gusto ko naman maalagaan. malaman kung ano ba kaya ko. pero tama na siguro. hindi naman ata mangyayari yoon. sabagay wala naman kasi akong gusto at ayokong magpaalaga. kaya siguro walang nag aalaga sakin.
ako din pa la may gawa ng sarili kong inaasam.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
psssssssst
tagal ko na pa lang hindi nagpopost MISS NA KITA HOY LALAKE PUMUNTA KA NA DITO SA BAHAY! GUSTO NA KITA MAYAKAP! MAKASAMA! wala lang. miss lang kita. ako na nga lang pupunta dyan T_T
Monday, May 7, 2007
drew
i'm bored and i want to be with you. waaaaah can't wait for tomorrow ^_^ todooooooo. i wish i wiiiiiiiish i wisssshhy wishy wish. na magkasama na tayo
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Saturday, May 5, 2007
Friday, May 4, 2007
isolation
i was suppose to write on my multiply blog. but what the heck. ayokong may mga makaalam. haha isa akong close minded na person and im not open for debate this time around.
drew, i dont want you to isolate yourself. kasi nakakaguilty sobra :( nalulungkot ako na parang your whole life depends on me.
drew, i dont want you to isolate yourself. kasi nakakaguilty sobra :( nalulungkot ako na parang your whole life depends on me.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
101 days.
dear andrew joseph tantongco alegre,
first of all, i want to thank you for being there for me. for saying that you love me and for meaning it everytime. for saying sorry when you've done nothing wrong and for teaching me to be patient, to be forgiving and to be understanding of the situations that happen. i want to thank you for being there for me, if not always by my side, by the heart. you've made me secure enough to face the world. to face my fears and to face myself.
second, i want to tell you i'm sorry. for doubting you. for being so shallow at times. for constantly teasing you and for nothing being there when you need me. i hope to be your shelter when you have nowhere to go. i hope to be the sun that keeps you warm. i hope to be the stars that guide you at night and i hope to be the girl who would always be by your side.
lastly, i want to wish you all the love in the world. not just the love i could offer but the love of friends and family. that you may find other people who would help you grow into what you could be and that would help you in your way when i am not ME. please tell me when you've found this special friend. because i would want to meet the person who can help you reach your dreams. after all, no man is an island and we are all hear to help each other. build each other and simply be there for each other.
i really really love you.
mahal kita.
sobra.
with love, gwen
first of all, i want to thank you for being there for me. for saying that you love me and for meaning it everytime. for saying sorry when you've done nothing wrong and for teaching me to be patient, to be forgiving and to be understanding of the situations that happen. i want to thank you for being there for me, if not always by my side, by the heart. you've made me secure enough to face the world. to face my fears and to face myself.
second, i want to tell you i'm sorry. for doubting you. for being so shallow at times. for constantly teasing you and for nothing being there when you need me. i hope to be your shelter when you have nowhere to go. i hope to be the sun that keeps you warm. i hope to be the stars that guide you at night and i hope to be the girl who would always be by your side.
lastly, i want to wish you all the love in the world. not just the love i could offer but the love of friends and family. that you may find other people who would help you grow into what you could be and that would help you in your way when i am not ME. please tell me when you've found this special friend. because i would want to meet the person who can help you reach your dreams. after all, no man is an island and we are all hear to help each other. build each other and simply be there for each other.
i really really love you.
mahal kita.
sobra.
with love, gwen
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
one hundred days down.
i'm sorry ang bigat talaga ng puso ko e. feel ko hindi ako naging friend sa kahit sinong tao and to think that i have not ever met your standard as a friend. sobrang alam ko na imperfect ako at sobrang sana tanggapin mo ko as who i am. and who i will ever be. grabe kasi e. hmph. sobrang hindi ako makahinga ngayon. hindi ko alam kung bakit. siguro dahil kumain ako ng egg kahapon or siguro kasi sa sobrang bigat ng puso ko. hindi ko talaga alam. basta mahal na mahal kita. sana alam mo yun. at wag ka ng malungkot. please
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Monday, April 30, 2007
april twenty nine
i didn't feel like going to church today ---> so i didn't. well actually i did. but my mind was wandering so much na parang wala na din ako doon. grabe nga e. pero DREW! devirginized na ko ng BIKE. huhu. XD
Sunday, April 29, 2007
heaven 'n hell
sakit ng tyan ko. sinuka ko yun heaven and eggs haha XD sayang di ko kinaya ang pagkain ng madami. kala ko pa naman. kaso ganoon talaga e. asa na lang ako. hahaha. never will i eat to that EXTREME!
Saturday, April 28, 2007
get well soon
really. please do. i want to see you tomorrow.
kung pwede lang yun sakit mo sakin na lang. grr.
i hurts so much to know na nasasaktan ka at wala ako sa tabi mo.
can i be your cure?
Thursday, April 26, 2007
my everything
i so love you. and i hope you know that. i would do anything just to be with you. i love you simply because you are you and that you know the way i know you.
conversation
ma: dapat kapag hihingi ka ng lalake kay God ka humingi. kung uulitin ko lang ang buhay ko dederechohin ko na. pipili ako ng anak ng Diyos.
me: *nods*
*silence*
me: chinese kaya si drew.
ma: wala akong pake kung chinese sya. bakit magsyota ba kayo?
me: hindi.
ma: o. e di wala syang karapatan. bakit sya ba magiging syota mo?
me: (sa aking isipinan. ang ibig sabihin ng syota ay short time. hindi sya pang short time. HINDI) hindi.
ma: mag ingat ka pa din kay andrew. lalake pa din yan.
me: sige.
me: *nods*
*silence*
me: chinese kaya si drew.
ma: wala akong pake kung chinese sya. bakit magsyota ba kayo?
me: hindi.
ma: o. e di wala syang karapatan. bakit sya ba magiging syota mo?
me: (sa aking isipinan. ang ibig sabihin ng syota ay short time. hindi sya pang short time. HINDI) hindi.
ma: mag ingat ka pa din kay andrew. lalake pa din yan.
me: sige.
you are now in subic
and i'm here stuck in de la salle university manila with a guy who is apparently addicted to a summer camper. haha. LOLs. thanks sa pag sabi sa kin na i should stop thinking about stuff. cause it only gets me frustrated. for some reason, ang hirap hindi mag isip ng mga abstract ideas kasi syempre it shows your view on life and everything else.
siguro my purpose right now is to love you. and i want to spend the rest of my life with you. ikaw lang naman ang nakikita kong kasama ko habang buhay e. promise. you're the only one that i will ever want and need. and gaaah. you're getting HOTTER.
irresistable
siguro my purpose right now is to love you. and i want to spend the rest of my life with you. ikaw lang naman ang nakikita kong kasama ko habang buhay e. promise. you're the only one that i will ever want and need. and gaaah. you're getting HOTTER.
irresistable
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
scared
ever since you told me that your mom had the idea that you should not limit yourself to just me for an option. takot ako. kasi syempre. i'm happy na hindi mo kinonsider yun sabi ng mom mo. pero natatakot pa din ako. sobra. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako natatakot. siguro kasi may chance na pwedeng may makilala kang iba na mas hihigit pa sakin.
ayoko nun.
gusto ko magpakaselfish. na kahit ganito lang ako.
akin ka lang.
kasi sa iyo lang naman ako e.
ayoko nun.
gusto ko magpakaselfish. na kahit ganito lang ako.
akin ka lang.
kasi sa iyo lang naman ako e.
Monday, April 23, 2007
what IF
what if nga no? kung hindi ako nagsabi ng iloveyou sa iyo. siguro hanggang textmates lang tayo. siguro hanggang doon lang tayo no? hanggang sa mga moments together lang. pero wala lang. wala sigurong feeling. wala sigurong security that you would always be there for me. shucks natatakot ako. wala lang. kaya ako tahimik ngayon habang kausap ka. kasi natatakot ako. at ayokong manaig ang takot sa puso ko. kasi alam kong mahal kita. nakakatakot isiping pwede maging hindi ganito. what if i treated you differently? what if i didn't make a move.
pero mahal na mahal kita. at nagpapasalamat ako na hanggang what if lang ang mga iniisip ko.
pero mahal na mahal kita. at nagpapasalamat ako na hanggang what if lang ang mga iniisip ko.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
21 :)
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! sad sad sad.
grabe. sweetest misery kita. haha. kasi alam mo kung bakit?! dahil ikaw nag isang tao na sobrang attached ako. as in to the NTH LEVEL. hehe napakaattached ako sa iyo. hehe. grabe. natuwa ka naman at nagseselos ako. haha. sana naappreciate mo ang 11 penguins ko para sa iyo. magpapractice na kong magdrawing ng monkey. :D hehe. wala lang. kakatuwa e. I'M finally doing something I LOVE for the PERSON i truly love. :">
wui TULOG SYA :D
grabe. sweetest misery kita. haha. kasi alam mo kung bakit?! dahil ikaw nag isang tao na sobrang attached ako. as in to the NTH LEVEL. hehe napakaattached ako sa iyo. hehe. grabe. natuwa ka naman at nagseselos ako. haha. sana naappreciate mo ang 11 penguins ko para sa iyo. magpapractice na kong magdrawing ng monkey. :D hehe. wala lang. kakatuwa e. I'M finally doing something I LOVE for the PERSON i truly love. :">
wui TULOG SYA :D
Saturday, April 21, 2007
hindi mo alam
na nagbloblog ako habang kausap ka. at alam mo ba na kaunting saglit na lang ay shux. 90 days na tayong magkasama. sorry po sa lahat. sobra. grabe. namatay YUN RABBIT! ang scary. huhu. iyak ako o. shux. parang bata na hindi mapatahan.
pero drew. mahal kita promise. buong buhay ko ibibigay ko sa iyo. at buong pagkatao ko. sana alam mo yun.
pero drew. mahal kita promise. buong buhay ko ibibigay ko sa iyo. at buong pagkatao ko. sana alam mo yun.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Thursday, April 19, 2007
SURPRISE!
ang cute cute mo talaga kanina sobra. grabe hindi na maiaalis sa isipan ko yun reaction mo kanina. grabe. parang BAKIT KA NANDITO?! pero sobrang cute mo talaga. weee. ok lang sakin na nakikiJAM ka with chart. UI. percussionist na ang minamahal ko. weeeeee mahal na mahal talaga kita. sobra. sana alam mo yun. :) sana talaga alam mo na kahit ano gagawin ko para sa iyo. MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA
:D
:D
Monday, April 16, 2007
time apart
grrrrrrrrrr. maghihiwalay tayo. naiiyak ako. huhu. gusto kita puntahan ngayon kaso kelangan ko tapusin ang chores ko. naku madaming salamat at ginising mo ko. huhu. ayokong umalis. :(
toops
grabe isa akong malaking tamad. alam mo naman na bukas aalis na ko pero wala. ayokong magpack. tinatamad ako. T_T
Saturday, April 14, 2007
far worst
.. the longest saturday i have. gaaaaaaaaah.
i want to kiss you so bad. i want to hug you to be with you to lie in bed with you. to think about you to hold your hand and touch you. to be everything you want me to.
ano bang masama kung inanaais kong makapiling ka, makasama ka?! e iyon ang nararamdaman ko e. at gusto ko mangyari iyon ngayon. pwede ba? please. huhu.
i want to kiss you so bad. i want to hug you to be with you to lie in bed with you. to think about you to hold your hand and touch you. to be everything you want me to.
ano bang masama kung inanaais kong makapiling ka, makasama ka?! e iyon ang nararamdaman ko e. at gusto ko mangyari iyon ngayon. pwede ba? please. huhu.
i miss you now
grabe. i want you to hug me so hard that you would not let me go. these is far one of the most hard seperation from you. and it hurts so bad that i can't see you. i really want to be with you so bad that it hurts not to be with you. grr. i hate summer. since it tears me apart.
Friday, April 13, 2007
course card
weeeeeeeee naka one point zero ako sa dasalgo. thank God :D weee. and thank God i have you. :) so happy to be with you every miunte of every second of everyday. :D
bakit parang ang ikli na lagi ng post ko. hmmm.
bakit parang ang ikli na lagi ng post ko. hmmm.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
objectp
toinkie toink toink. sana pumasa ako sa objectp. hala anmath1 test tomorrow. haha. ano kaya magyayari. hmmm :-s
sali tayo sa batch assembly. hehe. wala lang. nasubmit ko na form ko e. hehe interview. :P
sali tayo sa batch assembly. hehe. wala lang. nasubmit ko na form ko e. hehe interview. :P
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
dasalgo
ang cute mo magtest. nakakatuwa ka. wee. sana talaga pumasa ako sa dasalgo. shux. objectp pa pa la bukas no. hala. nako wee. half way na nga ako ngayon sa pag aaral ng objectp e. wee sana talaga pumasa ako sa objectp. :)
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
study
i really hope i pass dasalgo. i studied hard. i think. grr. im sorry na i didn't get to be with you today. sorry, i need to buy the charger na talaga. putek
Monday, April 9, 2007
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Saturday, April 7, 2007
hafee bday to my brother
sensia. late ako nagising e. wee i want everyday to be a friday. because fridays are so.. i dunno. it just makes me feel. free. hahaha. fridays are good days! super! i believe in that. it is the day God save us from our sins. redemption is totally sweet :D really sweeeeeeeeeeet. i do love you. love love loooove looooooove you!
Friday, April 6, 2007
hello
i was suppose to go to your house today. kaso aww. hindi natuloy dahil sa recording. wee. ang cool nung kaduet ko si mark gamboa. he's not that hot but still he sings HOT! hahahaa. God. he was that good. hehe. he carried the song. :) and damn ang ganda ganda nung song. i almost cried. it's about a mother and daughter relationship which gone down the drain. tapos nagrebelde yun daughter and she got pregnant. but the good thing about this is that. sinagot sya nung lalaki. as in. pero still, her mom forgave her despite everything. gets?! ganda ng story. haha. i was suppose to be the daughter. and there is a "hugging scene". wala lang. ang cool. i saw them practicing din kasi. hehe. makes me want to be there. but am not!
naririto lang ako sa tabi mo.hindi kita iiwan.
pangako.
coolness. ang ganda nung play. papatok sya. wee. hello my love. my one true love. i love you! do you know that?! ha?! shux. birthday na ng brother ko tomorrow. he's turning eight. LOL! haha. 8 years pa la gap namin. shux. i'm that OLD?! waah. but you are older haha :D
toodles my love!
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
second chances
you are my sweetest misery. and i am so happy. alam mo ba yung song na second chance ni michelle branch?! it is so nice.
even in front of the student body nevermind. erase erase. haha. mukha akong bi-atch nun. shux.
magpapakababae ako tomorrow. thankshu so much. ang sarap mo kasama. and don't think i will leave you. i won't. because i assure you physical presence is not the only way for you to know i am with you. always remember the wind when it blows. and remember me when you light a candle. look in the heart of the flame. there you will find me. like how i see myself deep in your heart. deep in your passion. deep in your flame.
i do love you. and i want to share every moment of every day of my whole life with you. i hope you feel the same way too. don't let me go. because i will never let you go. i need you. simply because i really do cherish and love you.
and it does matter. cause you will be the only reason i am here. you will be the only thing that would keep me living. i know i can live without you. but i won't take the chance. why live empty-handed, when there is something; someone meant for you. i so love you andrew. so much. i hope nakikita mo yun. i hope nararamdaman mo yun. at mas gusto ko na magpakaTOTOO ka. ok?! promise. and when we fight and we have not resolved it. oops. Major Offense po yan sa Discipline Office. I am not afraid to do it.And when you say
"It doesn't matter"; well it does
magpapakababae ako tomorrow. thankshu so much. ang sarap mo kasama. and don't think i will leave you. i won't. because i assure you physical presence is not the only way for you to know i am with you. always remember the wind when it blows. and remember me when you light a candle. look in the heart of the flame. there you will find me. like how i see myself deep in your heart. deep in your passion. deep in your flame.
i do love you. and i want to share every moment of every day of my whole life with you. i hope you feel the same way too. don't let me go. because i will never let you go. i need you. simply because i really do cherish and love you.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
smile
happenings, events. chikkaness.
i soo hope my cousin will pass manila science. ang galing niya kasi e. masipag sya.hindi sya matalino. pero anyways, ganoon ang buhay! she still deserves to go to masci. haha. everyone does.
natatawaamazed ako sa mga instances. matagal na pa la tayong pinagtatagpo ni fate. kaso nga lang TAMAD KA! ayan. but somehow the circumstances change but with the same goal -> to bring us together. and im glad i IMed you that night to ask if you were playing o2jam. and when i asked you to make kwento monkey and banana. and when i asked you to stay with me even though late na. and when i asked you to hug me. when i asked you to be my friend. and if it was ok to say 'i love you'. when i asked you who you liked and that i liked you back. im glad i made those decisions. or else i wouldn't have what i have right now. God does makes way. and
God has proven me you are the one. and you have. and all it took was for me to believe. for me to see. :)
today, i do admire kc. and im glad you met him. he's super nice although he looks like a cutepanda, he has the true heart of a tapat leader. tapat is a socio-political organization or your ticket to the student council.
it's a way of life. it's how you act, speak and communicate. for me that is tapat. not just a mere political party but a lifestyle. a way to live life to the fullest. to believe that each and everyone is good. that there must be something wrong with the system not the people. that we need change to solve problems and that we need each other to achieve a common goal. that is tapat. i want to be tapat. i hope i could. i would try. until i achieve that vision. a just and free society. too bad i won't see it materialize. i want to make that vision a reality. thank God for KC. he rekindled this flame. i'm quite happy. now i realize that it is truly in darkness that light shines the brighest. thanks Lean.
i'm happy. i think im doing what i want to do. when i first entered lasalle i told myself i want to change people's lives. and i think i do. i think i affect one life at a time.and it's not for the worse. i hope. i think they are actually changing because of me. and so am i. i've meet so many good people who taught me a lot of things. the good and the bad. i learned so many lessons and i knew i gave up a lot of times. but i promise myself, i will never give up anymore.
i will never give up the things which are worth fighting for. never.
i won't make the same mistake again.
i promise.
please be with me :)
forever//
i soo hope my cousin will pass manila science. ang galing niya kasi e. masipag sya.
God has proven me you are the one. and you have. and all it took was for me to believe. for me to see. :)
today, i do admire kc. and im glad you met him. he's super nice although he looks like a cute
it's a way of life. it's how you act, speak and communicate. for me that is tapat. not just a mere political party but a lifestyle. a way to live life to the fullest. to believe that each and everyone is good. that there must be something wrong with the system not the people. that we need change to solve problems and that we need each other to achieve a common goal. that is tapat. i want to be tapat. i hope i could. i would try. until i achieve that vision. a just and free society. too bad i won't see it materialize. i want to make that vision a reality. thank God for KC. he rekindled this flame. i'm quite happy. now i realize that it is truly in darkness that light shines the brighest. thanks Lean.
i'm happy. i think im doing what i want to do. when i first entered lasalle i told myself i want to change people's lives. and i think i do. i think i affect one life at a time.
i will never give up the things which are worth fighting for. never.
i won't make the same mistake again.
i promise.
please be with me :)
forever//
Monday, April 2, 2007
april one
shux. i totally lovelike the guy in "life with derek". super cool. ang hot niya tapos he is so handsome. totally. ang dami ngang gwapo ngayon sa paligid e. or maybe it's because i see things in a positive way. hmm. *think think* i dunno.
shux. ang bilis ng oras no. april na pa la. parang kahapon lang january no. tapos ngayon finals na. next term sophies na tayo. lovers of wisdom. LOL. asa naman di ba. pero shux ang dami talagang gwapo. nevermind. haha. :)
i do love you. and i want to sleepover there. sa summer. happy happy. i want to be with you even now. im so happy just being with you. and im sad that you are there alone. sana nafefeel mo ang pagmamahal ko. *blush blush*
'cause there will always be a part of me that will always be with you. and it's the part you could hold on to forever. though you can not see me or be with me physically, that part of me is always with you. ~it's my undying love for you and the way i love you.
p/s. time to fix my life. one step at a time. first. tapat. second. academics. third. tennis. fourth. friends. :)
i love you. :)
shux. ang bilis ng oras no. april na pa la. parang kahapon lang january no. tapos ngayon finals na. next term sophies na tayo. lovers of wisdom. LOL. asa naman di ba. pero
i do love you. and i want to sleepover there. sa summer. happy happy. i want to be with you even now. im so happy just being with you. and im sad that you are there alone. sana nafefeel mo ang pagmamahal ko. *blush blush*
'cause there will always be a part of me that will always be with you. and it's the part you could hold on to forever. though you can not see me or be with me physically, that part of me is always with you. ~it's my undying love for you and the way i love you.
i will love you with all that i am and will all that i will
ever be.
i love you. :)
Sunday, April 1, 2007
happy
i got some advices and i think nasabi ko na sila sa iyo.
lahat kayang gawin pero hindi lahat ng ginagawa kayang mahalin. and apparently it is so true. kasi we all have the capabilities to be whatever we want to be. but the wanting doesn't necessarily mean we love to be that. sometimes we could never love the thing we do because it is not inline with who we are.
we are here to encourage each other. and that is what i am going to do with you. i won't get tired of loving and supporting you.
i actually got frustrated kanina. kasi i realize all the people in my life have their own passion. their own thing that they are now pursuing. when you said to me magshift na ko. i wanted to. but where?! mahirap. pero. tapos sir perez finally went to PMA. it's these people. these experiences that makes me think twice right now?! if i am really going to pursue what i want. what i need.
but i want to be with you.
and i want to be the one for you. who would support you all the way.
i guess it's something called sacrifice. :) but then again, it's never called sacrifice when you do it willingly. right?!
lahat kayang gawin pero hindi lahat ng ginagawa kayang mahalin. and apparently it is so true. kasi we all have the capabilities to be whatever we want to be. but the wanting doesn't necessarily mean we love to be that. sometimes we could never love the thing we do because it is not inline with who we are.
we are here to encourage each other. and that is what i am going to do with you. i won't get tired of loving and supporting you.
i actually got frustrated kanina. kasi i realize all the people in my life have their own passion. their own thing that they are now pursuing. when you said to me magshift na ko. i wanted to. but where?! mahirap. pero. tapos sir perez finally went to PMA. it's these people. these experiences that makes me think twice right now?! if i am really going to pursue what i want. what i need.
but i want to be with you.
and i want to be the one for you. who would support you all the way.
i guess it's something called sacrifice. :) but then again, it's never called sacrifice when you do it willingly. right?!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
super thanks
for opening up to me. i am so thankful you start to remember everything. the ups and the downs of your life. i want to know as much as i could about you. im so thankful na hindi na sya black out. and though some bits of it still remain unremembered im still here. i'd wait for the day you would tell it to me. im so thankful you are always there listening to every bit of me. you're there waiting for me to speak. and not leaving my side.
i can't stop loving you. :) and nothing is going to stop us. not now. :)
i can't stop loving you. :) and nothing is going to stop us. not now. :)
3 hours 30 minutes
i labshooooooo so much. sana hindi ka magsawa sa mga kababawan ko kahit tipong body image__ pero magpapapayat ako. kailangan matutunan ko mahalin sarili ko. balik ko sa dati body ko. bye bye bilbil! beh!
4 hours na ba next time? :)
~*kilig
4 hours na ba next time? :)
~*kilig
Thursday, March 29, 2007
nakkabadtrip__
ayoko mag isip. ayoko lang talaga. nakakabad trip na kasi sya. er. ayokong mabitag sa patibong niya. wala syang kwenta. bad trip sya.
ikaw mahal ko! weeeeee!
ikaw mahal ko! weeeeee!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
ang hirap
nahihirapan ako para sa iyo. mahirap mangamba na babagsak ka. pramis. naranasan ko na yan. nung second term course card day feeling ko talaga babagsak ako sa compro2. sure nakapass ako ng machine project pero alam mo yun. basura kasi un pinass ko. at 60 lang ako sa mp. "daw" ewan. pero 70 un nakasulat sa envelope. in the end nakakuha ako ng 2.0. at take note passing lang ang depex at hindi ko alam ang finals ko. siguro un lang. 2nd depex. nakabawi ako. pero other than that. hindi ako gumagawa ng seatwork at lab ko. ewan ko dun.
i'll pray for you. yun lang magagawa ko ngaun. hindi ko naman kontrolado ang isip ni sir raffy. pero sana talaga. formdev volunteer facilitator sya tapos ganun sya kaheartless. waaaah. nvm. next topic.
birthday ni mama ngayon. haha binigyan ko sya ng cake tapos libro na gusto niya. haha. grabe. woho. alam mo pinag~uusapan ka namin ni louie. tapos narealize ko na ang tigas nga ng ulo mo. grabe. kapag gusto mo gusto mo. may prinsipyo. radical ka din e. tapat na tapat. hahaha. joke lang. pero totoo. pramis. kapag may gusto ka ipaglalaban mo. sana ganun din ako. sana. o well.
sana mabigay ko ang kinakailangan mo. sana ako na ang para sa iyo. hindi ko na kaya mabuhay ng wala ka. parang hindi kompleto araw ko na hindi ka nakikita. siguro hanggang picture lang kung hindi sa personal. pero. ewan. gusto ko lagi kitang nakikita, nakakasama, nakakausap. ang possessive ko ba?! waaah. feeling ko obssess ako na hindi. lagi na lang kitang bukang bibig. ewan ko. ang labo ko talaga sobra. basta gusto kita. mahal kita. at hindi ako magsasawa. sana lang wala ng hahadlang sa ating dalawa.
mahal na mahal kita.
i'll pray for you. yun lang magagawa ko ngaun. hindi ko naman kontrolado ang isip ni sir raffy. pero sana talaga. formdev volunteer facilitator sya tapos ganun sya kaheartless. waaaah. nvm. next topic.
birthday ni mama ngayon. haha binigyan ko sya ng cake tapos libro na gusto niya. haha. grabe. woho. alam mo pinag~uusapan ka namin ni louie. tapos narealize ko na ang tigas nga ng ulo mo. grabe. kapag gusto mo gusto mo. may prinsipyo. radical ka din e. tapat na tapat. hahaha. joke lang. pero totoo. pramis. kapag may gusto ka ipaglalaban mo. sana ganun din ako. sana. o well.
sana mabigay ko ang kinakailangan mo. sana ako na ang para sa iyo. hindi ko na kaya mabuhay ng wala ka. parang hindi kompleto araw ko na hindi ka nakikita. siguro hanggang picture lang kung hindi sa personal. pero. ewan. gusto ko lagi kitang nakikita, nakakasama, nakakausap. ang possessive ko ba?! waaah. feeling ko obssess ako na hindi. lagi na lang kitang bukang bibig. ewan ko. ang labo ko talaga sobra. basta gusto kita. mahal kita. at hindi ako magsasawa. sana lang wala ng hahadlang sa ating dalawa.
mahal na mahal kita.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
i love every bit of you
sakit talaga ng ulo_ siguro dahil din sa kakaisip sa iyo.
nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos at ikaw ang makakasama ko.
nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos at ikaw ang makakasama ko.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
two hours
wee. kinikilig ako kanina. kahit medyo nahirapan ako mag explain nung una. i hope everything turned out ok. phew. shux. hehe. no more graphical movies. nasusuka ako. haha. kasi naman e. siguro wrong timing lang kasi low pa resistensya ko kaya ayun. pero ok lang. :)
wee. ang laki laki ng trust ko sa iyo sana alagaan mo yun. madami kang alam sakin na hindi alam ng kung sino man. shux! mahirap kitang maging kaaway. hehehe joke lang.
gusto ko ng...... secret!
wee. ang laki laki ng trust ko sa iyo sana alagaan mo yun. madami kang alam sakin na hindi alam ng kung sino man. shux! mahirap kitang maging kaaway. hehehe joke lang.
gusto ko ng...... secret!
Monday, March 19, 2007
i am sooooo bored
kahapon iniisip kita habang lunch break. wahahaha. secret ko na kung ano iniisip ko tungkol sa iyo. tada. i am so freaking missing you. kasi naman e. hindi tayo nagkita kahapon. and if ever di din naman tayo magkikita kasi hindi ka din pa la pumasok. haha. LOL.
pero ok lang un. namimiss lang talaga kita. hindi ko alam. shet gusto talaga kita makita ngayon. bakit kasi Q.C. ka at P'que ako. dapat lumiit naman ang gap ng north and south minsan para magkita tayo. hehe. halfway ata natin lasalle e. o well. gusto talaga kita makita. takas ko kaya si car? >:)
wahahhaa. gutom na ko. kakain muna ako. hehe but i still misssss you
pero ok lang un. namimiss lang talaga kita. hindi ko alam. shet gusto talaga kita makita ngayon. bakit kasi Q.C. ka at P'que ako. dapat lumiit naman ang gap ng north and south minsan para magkita tayo. hehe. halfway ata natin lasalle e. o well. gusto talaga kita makita. takas ko kaya si car? >:)
wahahhaa. gutom na ko. kakain muna ako. hehe but i still misssss you
Sunday, March 18, 2007
sabaday
hmm di ka pumasok? well ok lang naman kung hindi. weee natutuwa ako na nakapagperform kayo kagabi. ang cool talaga. weee. gusto ko ulit kayo mkita magperform.
hmm anu nga ba nagyari ngaun. todo asar sakin si sir kit. sobra parang ok gwen matulog ka na lang. im like e ang ingay mo e. grabe kami magpansinan. wahaha. issue. pero wala un. pareho na kaming may mahal. in my case ikaw un mahal ko. *blushing*
hahaha namumutla nga talaga ako ngayon. at grabe naman ang pagod ko. pumunta ako kila dad kanina tapos sabi niya lagi na lang daw akong stressed. na hindi ko na daw inaallot ang time ko for them. basta simpleng bagay *poofed pinapalaki. o weeeeeeeeell. ayun arguement. go home.
gusto kita kausapin later. hmmm basta kakausapin kita. :) kahit may sakit ako huhu.
hmm anu nga ba nagyari ngaun. todo asar sakin si sir kit. sobra parang ok gwen matulog ka na lang. im like e ang ingay mo e. grabe kami magpansinan. wahaha. issue. pero wala un. pareho na kaming may mahal. in my case ikaw un mahal ko. *blushing*
hahaha namumutla nga talaga ako ngayon. at grabe naman ang pagod ko. pumunta ako kila dad kanina tapos sabi niya lagi na lang daw akong stressed. na hindi ko na daw inaallot ang time ko for them. basta simpleng bagay *poofed pinapalaki. o weeeeeeeeell. ayun arguement. go home.
gusto kita kausapin later. hmmm basta kakausapin kita. :) kahit may sakit ako huhu.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
huwaw
mamaya contest niyo na. weeeeeeeee syempre kaya niyo naman un e. kayo pa. naks. ikaw pa. tinatamad pa din akong pumasok pero mag uumpisa na akong gumalaw. dumating na si papa. tinatamad akong umuwi sa makati. dito pa din ako uuwi mamaya. wala lang. sige kain na ki.
Friday, March 16, 2007
wulaaah lang
hehehe wala akong magawang matino ngayon. ginagawa ko yun filkomu mo. hehe. ang kulit tlaga ng word na jam. ang dami pa lang meaning. hehe. grabe. natutuwa ako. makapagresearch pa nga. malay mo may iba pang meaning ang mga everyday words. ~badtrip
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
much better__
such a relief. hehehe grabe. tuwang tuwa ako noong narinig ko yoong words na iyon galing sa iyo. :) and kumukulit ka na. pero ok lang. mas gusto ko ng ganoon. i like the attention you are giving me. and i love it just the way it is. i love you more than you will ever know. kahit hindi ako ganoon ka-expressive, nag uumpaw ang pagmamahal ko para sa iyo. :) sana alam mo yun. pero alam kong alam mo yun. ikaw pa?
si louie namomoblema sa academics. sabi ko tutulungan mo sya sa objectp. i know you will. ikaw pa. you give everything you have. shinashare mo sa world. :) wee. kaya ayun. ako naman tutulong sa kanya sa objectp.
tapos si bes. busted na talaga. kasi may boyfriend na si rykiel. errrr. bakit ganoon. sabi niya kay bes hindi pa daw sya handa sa relationship tapos nagka-bf sya. ambad. kaya ayun feeling tuloy ni bes napakaworthless niyang tao. sabi ko hindi sya worthless kasi for one ~ bestfriend ko sya. at may babae somewhere out there na magmamahal sa kanya. totoo naman di ba? :D weeeeee. wala lang. XD
ayun. alam ko nagbabadminton ka pa ngaun. XD at ako ay nawawalan ng pag asa sa machine project ko. wuhoooooo. o well. ang cheness talaga ng buhay ok. lala laalaalalalaa.
andyan ka naman e. XD
si louie namomoblema sa academics. sabi ko tutulungan mo sya sa objectp. i know you will. ikaw pa. you give everything you have. shinashare mo sa world. :) wee. kaya ayun. ako naman tutulong sa kanya sa objectp.
tapos si bes. busted na talaga. kasi may boyfriend na si rykiel. errrr. bakit ganoon. sabi niya kay bes hindi pa daw sya handa sa relationship tapos nagka-bf sya. ambad. kaya ayun feeling tuloy ni bes napakaworthless niyang tao. sabi ko hindi sya worthless kasi for one ~ bestfriend ko sya. at may babae somewhere out there na magmamahal sa kanya. totoo naman di ba? :D weeeeee. wala lang. XD
ayun. alam ko nagbabadminton ka pa ngaun. XD at ako ay nawawalan ng pag asa sa machine project ko. wuhoooooo. o well. ang cheness talaga ng buhay ok. lala laalaalalalaa.
andyan ka naman e. XD
Monday, March 12, 2007
__ang tagal mo
hehe buti naman nagbobonding na kayo ni tita julie. naks. hehe buti yan. :) gusto ko maging close kayo. hehe kami ni mama. hmm gusto niya basahin mga entries ko sa multiply. parang. WAAAAAAG NAAAAAAAA. pagtitripan niya lang ako e. at huhu. kawawa naman ako nun di ba. errrrrr.
alam mo ba kung bakit sundae ang tawag sa sundae? kasi dati binebenta sya kapag sunday. kaso nga lang nainsulto ung church kasi Lord's day nga daw di ba. so para hindi halata tenenettene. ayun. sundae na lang un spelling. hehe.
grabe nahyhyper na naman ako. dont worry wala akong nakain. iniisip lang kita. inde ako kumain buong day. para lang hindi mo sabihing nahyhyper ako dahil may nakain akong food. at hindi ako sobra sa tulog. take note 500 am na ako natulog kagabi kakaisip sa iyo tapos nagising ako 800 am. mukha bang sobra sa tulog un. hindi. XD
hmmmmmm wala lang. hindi ka kasi online e. hindi kita magulo. XD pero feeling ko kahit online ka hindi kita guguluhin e. kasi ayokong maabala kita. weeeeeeeee. wala lang. :) mahal na mahal kita. XD hehe. cheness. XD
alam mo ba kung bakit sundae ang tawag sa sundae? kasi dati binebenta sya kapag sunday. kaso nga lang nainsulto ung church kasi Lord's day nga daw di ba. so para hindi halata tenenettene. ayun. sundae na lang un spelling. hehe.
grabe nahyhyper na naman ako. dont worry wala akong nakain. iniisip lang kita. inde ako kumain buong day. para lang hindi mo sabihing nahyhyper ako dahil may nakain akong food. at hindi ako sobra sa tulog. take note 500 am na ako natulog kagabi kakaisip sa iyo tapos nagising ako 800 am. mukha bang sobra sa tulog un. hindi. XD
hmmmmmm wala lang. hindi ka kasi online e. hindi kita magulo. XD pero feeling ko kahit online ka hindi kita guguluhin e. kasi ayokong maabala kita. weeeeeeeee. wala lang. :) mahal na mahal kita. XD hehe. cheness. XD
Sunday, March 11, 2007
first post___
tada. wala lang. gusto ko lang gumawa ng blog na pwede kong ipakita sa iyo someday. kung sa multiply kasi madaming makakabasa ~ puro non sense lang siguro ilalagay ko dito. lahat ng iniisip ko tungkol iyo. siguro. hehe o lahat ng gusto ko sa iyo. lahat ng problema ko. lahat na lang. para kung hindi ko masabi sa iyo mabasa mo na lang.
gusto kita makasama habang buhay. gusto ko na makapiling kita. ayokong makikita kang umiiyak. kaya bibili na ako ng panyo para punasan ko ang mga luhang pumapatak sa mata mo. grabe ilang araw na ba tayo? hmm. alam mo bang fourty nine days na tayo? na nagmamahal. ang dami na din nating pinagdaan. grabe nga parang almost two months pa lang. ten days before precisely tapos ang daming luha na ang dumaan sa mga mata mo.
hmm bakit kaya ganoon no? lagi na lang kitang napapaiyak. ganoon ba ako kasamang tao? siguro naman hindi naman di ba? be honest. honesty tayo di ba? ako kasi. alam kong kaya mong mabuhay ng wala ako. ang saklap nga e. kasi hindi ko talaga kaya mabuhay ng mag*isa. parang hindi ko kaya ng wala ang ibang tao. ~ teamwork kasi ako e.
favor. favor lang. pwede bang 'wag ka naman masyadong maging independent. pwede kahit papaano maging dependent ka sakin. kasi baka kayanin mo na wala ako. ako hindi ko kayang wala ka. kahit pinipiliit ko. hindi ko talaga kaya. parang nakakahanap at nakakahanap ang puso at isip ko upang magkasama tayo. parang hindi ko talaga kayang mawala ka. mas lalo na kung mawawala ka sakin.
gusto kita makasama habang buhay. gusto ko na makapiling kita. ayokong makikita kang umiiyak. kaya bibili na ako ng panyo para punasan ko ang mga luhang pumapatak sa mata mo. grabe ilang araw na ba tayo? hmm. alam mo bang fourty nine days na tayo? na nagmamahal. ang dami na din nating pinagdaan. grabe nga parang almost two months pa lang. ten days before precisely tapos ang daming luha na ang dumaan sa mga mata mo.
hmm bakit kaya ganoon no? lagi na lang kitang napapaiyak. ganoon ba ako kasamang tao? siguro naman hindi naman di ba? be honest. honesty tayo di ba? ako kasi. alam kong kaya mong mabuhay ng wala ako. ang saklap nga e. kasi hindi ko talaga kaya mabuhay ng mag*isa. parang hindi ko kaya ng wala ang ibang tao. ~ teamwork kasi ako e.
favor. favor lang. pwede bang 'wag ka naman masyadong maging independent. pwede kahit papaano maging dependent ka sakin. kasi baka kayanin mo na wala ako. ako hindi ko kayang wala ka. kahit pinipiliit ko. hindi ko talaga kaya. parang nakakahanap at nakakahanap ang puso at isip ko upang magkasama tayo. parang hindi ko talaga kayang mawala ka. mas lalo na kung mawawala ka sakin.
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