phone call

am still waiting for you. i actually knew na hindi ikaw ang nagbaba ng phone. and it makes me not want to go there much more. it is not really about you. seriously. it's about your family. alam mo na naman na in the first place takot ako sa mom mo. and i now know na hindi s'ya takot. ok mom mo. no doubt about that. and i thank her, that if it wasn't for her "mistake" she would not have given birth to you and if she didn't raise you that way - i would not have know who you are and what have you become. and i actually want to thank her for that. kasi i am so secured with you. and i love you the way you are. and what you will be. ^_^

kaso nga lang, ayoko lang talaga. uncomfortable din ako. halata naman e. do i talk when she is around. rare! nagsasalita lang ako kapag HYPER ako. and i'm not in the idea of her and me being close. nakakatakot. huhu. takot talaga ako. pero ganoon talaga e. ok lang. casual talks pero walang personal talks. siguro when it comes to marriage. but then again. *whistle*