oh yeah. i am so desperate. depressed and all those words to use when one is deprive of real happiness. of true happiness. i learned today that humility is being true to yourself and knowing your capabilities and limitations and being able to let others step up. so there. new understanding thanks to Father Ed Villanueva who happens to be a very nice homily giver during mass.
gawd. i envy you. island hopping. rawr. someday i'll get to do that again. for the mean time, i will continue to sober in my bottomless pool of loneliness. i feel so alone. i feel betrayed. i feel every bit of me is being taken for granted by certain people.
at bakit nga lahat ng tao kala galit ako? kung hindi ko sila pinapansin and they don't cease to exist in my world then galit ako. pero hello, i talk to them and i reply if given the chance. but still. o well. people are so blurry. haha :P LABO! i'm tired. really tired. tired of sitting all day in the house with nothing to do but hope you'll reply to my messages when i know you won't cause there is super low signal in Palawan. bitchy network. grr. someday. i will yeah. someday. whatever gwen.
but WAAAH i still miss you. really bad. as in bad with the lust and the love and the greed and the gluttony and everything that means excess. absences makes the heart grow fonder. men, i am really fond of you.
tomorrow, i mean later, i'll watch the movie on my own and perhaps scout for some books to read for a while. i need to entertain myself so bad because being stuck in the house isn't helping me. it's making me think. i don't want to think.
i don't want to be angry anymore. i don't want to be scared anymore. >.< i want you and you alone. GIVE YOURSELF TO ME :) NOW NA! hahaha :P
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