is haunting me. And it is getting more and more ugly. In the dream, I see a lot of people die. And I don't know them, but they are dying. And when I wanted to pay tribute to the lives of this people, someone full of ego and air in his head didn't want me too. It was a painful dream and I can feel my heart aching when I woke up from that dream. I wanted to go back to sleep desperately wanting ponies, rainbows and happy feelings but another bad dream came into the picture.
I was feeling alone again. This time with no one by my side. I kept thinking that it's all a dream and there's nothing more to it. Our minds only produce random thoughts and try to make sense of it. But it seemed logical as if by chance, those random thoughts are really related. They seem to give the perfect scenario of loneliness, defeat and depression.
My body's aching and My heart's in pain. You're the only one I could open up to. And I hope someday you'd be able to read all of this and tell me what am I suppose to feel. Right now, as I type this, I feel my emotions slowly drifting away - to some far off island. To be buried under the sand marked with the letter X. People think its a treasure but the X really meant keep out.
I want you here by my side although I find it hard to express. I don't want you depressed and I don't want to be the cause of your downfall. So I'd try to put my happy face and make you happy. But that doesn't make it any easier to me :(
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