Totally confused and I didn't know what to do. Well, I wanted to call you and tried but all that answered was the fax machine or something. I saw that you weren't idle and since you said you didn't go to school, I think YM must have some bug or something to not make you idle. Because you always seem idle to me during those times in the morning.
I had to talk to someone. I felt as if the whole word was on my shoulder and as if I could fall down anytime. I felt as if I'd continue failing in my life because that's what happened in my dream. I lost my plane ticket to Hawaii and I was crying. You were there and you were going on a different plane. I think you wanted to be with me. But you couldn't because you were going to somewhere on the other side of the globe without me. You were going to follow your dreams which is good. But I was sad in the dream. Sad and scared. A little bit confused.
I remember that dreams also seem real and that it's hard to distinguish which reality is the 'real' reality. Sometimes I think that dreams are just dreams when in fact, I am half awake without complete consciousness. I am experiencing as if I am in a dream but I am awake. I just have the illusion that I'm asleep.
Picasso said what you believe is real. Descartes said what is rational is real. Or was it some other German Philosopher with a name that's hard to spell? I don't know. I think I'll make up my own saying someday on what reality is. Because even if you believe it is real, it may not be exactly reality.
What is reality anyway?
I don't know.
But you seem real to me. And please don't tell me this is a dream :(
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